Guardians of the Heart

45. We Weren't Meant To Be From the Beginning

  “What are you talking about?” Jensen looked back at me.

                “I'm telling you that I can't stay here Jensen. I just can't be here. Things are happening here that I can't be a part of anymore.”

                Jensen laughed back at me, “You little bitch.”

                “What did you just say to me?”

                “You are such a bitch; I tried to make everything work for you. I wanted us to be perfect but I can't get you to just look at me like you love me anymore.”

                “Jensen, I do love you but I can't remain in Vancouver. I have to go home.”

                “You think that this is some destiny of yours? That is all just some bullshit that your mother said to get you to run her fucking business and keep her name alive!”

                “You don’t mean that Jensen so please just stop.”

                “I mean everything I say to you. For the past few months I have been trying to figure out my life. I have gotten another role in a really good upcoming show and I won't pass that up. I won't destroy my life for you. I won't become something as a side show for you.”

                “Jensen, I never asked you to.”

                “I can't believe how much of a show I put on tonight. I can't believe I wanted us to be together. I mean look at us Jordana.”

                “We come from different worlds Jensen.” I looked up at him.

                “That is right, you are royalty and I guess that makes me the town idiot.”

                “Jensen, that isn't what I meant.”

                “You should just toss me to the side and call me the road kill.”

                I shook my head back at him, “What is wrong with you?”             

Jensen tossed the little box at me.

                I looked back at him.

                “I made sure that Danneel was out of my life for good, I made sure that my past would never come back to haunt us but hey look here, you can't run away from yours. You just can't stay away from them.”

                I put the little box on the table, “My parents are dead. I have something to stand up for back at home. I can't let it crumble.”

                Jensen glanced up at me, “Not even for me?”

                I shook my head as I felt my bottom lip start to tremble, “I'm so sorry Jensen that it came to this. That this is what has come of us.”

                Jensen laughed as he sat down at the table, “I thought I actually had a chance with you. I mean I actually wanted to marry you. I wanted us to be together. I wanted you to be my wife. I wanted us to have a family.”

                I looked back at him, “You want a family with me?”

                Jensen nodded his head, “I really did. I wanted some kids with you. You were the only person that I wanted that with for a long time Jordana. I mean I actually love you. I can't look at someone like I look at you. I don’t wanna look at someone like I looked at you. I saw the good in you and I saw the reality in us. I saw us together.”