#WUM5
It didn't let me sleep for days.
Ajax and I were seeing each other on different gigs anywhere after that night but he never tried to talk to me again like his usual routine then, he seemed unbothered by my presence now as if he didn't annoy me just to talk at all before.
It was as if I'm just a wind every time we cross paths.
Why? I know the answer, because I'm a bad guy and I hurt that Gigi unintentionally.
Why didn't I apologize? Because I was embarrassed.
It was frustrating.
It was unfair. I don't know, I just feel bad for myself that I think he's being unfair because I'm frustrated. I was about to apologize, alright, I tried but the way he glared at me—embarrassed me to the point my pride went too high.
"Sori—"
"Shut the hell up," I prickly said.
What the hell? That makes me even more guilty, pati nickname ko pinapaalala pa iyon.
"Woah!" L was shocked.
"What happened to you? You're so irritable for days!" Forest laughed while eating bread with Nutella, she turned to L and Riva on the bed. "Ano bang nangyari last time? Sabi mo simula noong nakaraang gig siya naging ganyan?"
L shrugged. "I don't really know. Hindi naman makuwento 'yan pero iyon nga napansin ko, last week iyon!"
That's even more annoying to hear because it was true. I went back to our table—Ajax and Gigi, too, but they just bid their goodbye as if I ruined their night at Lucky Spot.
I put on my earphones and tried to close my eyes while sitting on the couch across them.
"Lalong sumama 'yong ugali, 'no?!" tawa ni Riva.
My chest heaved when I heard that, I quickly threw a glare that made them shut up.
I wanted to lash out but instead of voicing my frustration out, I silently walked out of L and Bowen's condo to breathe. Gustuhin ko man magsabi sa kanila ay may bumubulong sa aking huwag na lang. Mabuti sana kung si L lang ang narito.
I can't understand myself; I was annoyed and guilty at the same time. May mali ako pero ayaw kong tanggapin, siguro masama nga talaga ang ugali ko.
I didn't go back. I just decided to walk through the streets to calm myself down, nang mapagod ay huminto ako sa isang maliit na sari-sari store at naupo sa upuan sa labas noon.
"Tao, po," sabi ko habang marahang kumakatok sa counter ng tindahan. Walang lumalabas doon kaya naupo ulit ako at tinawagan si Hera pansamantala.
Pinanood ko iyong mga batang naghahabulan sa kalsada, napangisi ako nang madapa iyong isa at umiyak. Dinaluhan agad siya ng isang bata at tinayo, pinagpag iyong tuhod niyang nadumihan.
"Huwag ka na umiyak, baka malaman ni Mama! Hindi na tayo papalabasin noon, sige ka!"
The kid sobbed and wiped her tears immediately, ilang saglit pa siyang nagpapakalma ay tumakbo ulit para sumunod sa batang lalaki na nakikipaghabulan sa ibang bata.
I snickered at how she could easily be stopped by the threat.
I wonder why their mother wouldn't let them out again? Kasi umiyak iyong bata? I'm not sure, I didn't really experience that kind of outdoor play. When I was a kid, I could only remember that I became a model for kid's fashion clothes, cereals, fresh milk and kid's cologne. Mommy was always happy for me and Hera after every shoot.
