#WUM46
"What do you wanna talk about, Sorcha?" he started as soon as we slid inside the black heavily tinted Evoque. He turned the ignition on just for the aircon.
Wala namang tao sa paligid kaya panatag akong makasakay rito kahit na alam kong kasama siya at may iniingatan siyang image dahil nga kilala na rin sila bilang trainees ng Sonic Sounds.
I shook my head. "I-I don't know..."
I actually know. I'm just calming myself down for a while to collect what I have been wanting to tell from the very root.
He sighed and looked at me as if he's so confused at the moment. My eyes softened more when our eyes met while his, hardened. His jaw clenched as he looked in front then rested his folded arm against the steering wheel.
Having a closer view of him, I could notice how he changed into one gorgeous man. His body, his voice, his aura and all. He got mascular but it doesn't look like he was putting effort on it. It was just how the puberty hit him. His chest is obvious underneath the white uniform top and he probably gotten inch taller. His face structure is more defined now unlike before that he looked like an innocent man even tall — his jawline is now sharp, his skin also lightened a bit but it's still the same smooth and healthy. His eyes weren't expressive anymore too.
He just really looks like a celebrity. Not that he wasn't handsome before but right now, he's healthily fit and radiant. Kung makikita siya kung saan ay aasahang modelo siya o anumang nasa showbiz.
I was embarrassed when his eyes shifted to me. He seemed so uninterested and annoyed.
"What are you looking at? Ano bang pag-uusapan? 'Yong reality show? You want my advice, right? I think it depends on you, if you're comfortable with it then go."
Uminit ang mukha ko sa kahihiyan. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam ng naghahabol sa atensyon na gustong-gusto mong makuha pero hindi nakikisama iyon.
This was how he must've felt before when I didn't have any interest in him and I kept ignoring him.
To be honest, it wasn't all about the advice. Bawal ba kaming mag-usap?
Doon pa lang ako nagkaroon ng katiting na tapang. Sa pag-iwas niya ng tingin ay siyang iwas din ng kaduwagan ko. Nakakakaba kasi iyong tingin niya na parang ayaw na ayaw na sa akin.
I collected my voice so it wouldn't be shaky.
"I'm sorry..."
Balak kong sundan pero inunahan niya ako.
"Direct to the point. I don't wanna be late to class. Keep talking para matapos na 'to."
"You're probably mad at me but please, let's just talk."
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil kahit alam kong ako naman ang naunang nagdesisyon ay gusto ko pa ring makausap siya na hindi ganito ang pakikitungo sa akin dahil ayaw kong maiyak.
Damn. I'm too soft right now and I'm still in the verge of crying because my heart was breaking.
I saw his adam's apple moved as he swallowed a bit, he turned to me with sharp serious eyes.
"We're talking. Gusto ko lang dumirekta ka na sa punto para hindi na tumagal ang oras."
He's so harsh but I was harsher back then. Ngayon ramdam ko iyong pagkapahiya sa ganitong sitwasyon pero hindi ko iyon naiisip noon at basta lang siyang tinataboy pero hindi siya napagod lumapit paulit-ulit.
Bakit ako naduduwag agad at nahihiya sa simpleng panggaganito niya? Nasanay ba ako masyadong malambot siya pagdating sa akin?
Do I have a right to demand for his better treatment right now? I didn't even think twice of hurting him back then.
