#WUM41
"Naiinis na ako sa iyo
Bakit mo ba ako ginaganito
Ikaw ba ay naguguluhan sa 'king tunay na nararamdaman sa iyo"
Dinig ko sa labas pa lang iyong boses ni Ajax na kumakanta at hindi ko alam kung bakit mas kabado ako kaysa panatag. My heart was already twisting painfully. I felt so cold and anxious as I carefully opened Hideout's door.
Kukunin ko lang iyong gitara ko... gusto ko rin siyang makita kahit saglit lang. Kahit hindi niya ako kausapin.
I stepped in quietly. Since the jamming was on-going, the place was also loud. Kasabay ng dagundong ng ginagawa nilang musika, ganoon din ang kabang nararamdaman ko sa oras na tumapak ako papasok.
Siguro ang kapal-kapal ng mukha kong tumungtong pa rito pagkatapos ko silang hindi siputin.
At the jamming spot, the members were all there but with their exchanged roles. Eris was on the drum throne, Kees as lead guitarist, Tanner as keyboardist, Hesperus the bassist and Ajax as the vocalist for today's jamming session. They were all busy with their own roles.
They all looked dashing even with different roles, I must say.
Dacia was the only one who noticed my entrance behind. She glanced but didn't say a word as if it was normal to see me here. I didn't expect that, or maybe she didn't know what happened.
I watched Ajax for a while even though I was scared to be seen. He seemed alright and lively while singing there. His voice was still that soothing and nice to listen to.
I see... he's doing fine. That's all I want to see right now.
Wag mo na sana akong pahirapan pa
Kung ayaw mo sa 'kin ay sabihin mo na
Wag mo na sana akong ipaasa sa wala
Oo na mahal na kung mahal kita
My heart throbbed more when his eyes suddenly fluttered open while he was singing the lines. It was unexpected that I felt shivers as our eyes caught a moment together. Mas lamang ang kaba at takot ko.
May gulat na gumuhit sa mga mata niya pero agad ding nanlamig bago bumalik sa normal. It went back to being carefree while singing but I could feel the sharpness of his eyes. I tried to keep the contact for a moment and I didn't expect he'd stare back as if I was gonna vanish if he did.
Nanlamig ako kaya nang makita ko ang gitara ko sa gilid kung saan iyon nakasandal ay nilapitan ko na para kunin. My knees were weak as I walked out. Even how much I wanted to look back at Ajax again, I couldn't do it in fear of breaking down.
Mabilis akong naglakad palabas ng hideout upang makaalis.
I don't want to leave without explaining but... what's the sense? Would it change a thing? No. Would it comfort him? Definitely no. Would it make us alright? Never.
My tears were in the verge of falling. Mabilis ang kalabog ng dibdib ko sa pagpipigil ng emosyon. I stepped up to the stairs but before I could reach the top, I got pulled by a tight grip.
"Ano, Sorcha?" singhal agad ang nadinig ko.
I gasped nervously. I was so reluctant to look so I wriggled to pull my wrist back. His grip was so tight that I couldn't get out.
"Let me go," I demanded sternly.
"'Yon lang 'yon?" he sounded so pissed as he gripped tighter and pulled my wrist to make me face him. "Saan ka pupunta?"
His glare and menacing expression added fire to my fear. He was looking better and better but his eyes were like empty shelter. It looked longing... it hurt even more.
