The Struggle with the Acceptance of Love

Chapter 8

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REY'S POV:

A week has passed since me and Ben sat together on the throne. A week of me and Ben sleeping in one another's bed together for comfort. A week of trying to get rid of his knights so we can finally be alone together, we did, finally, yesterday.

We still don't know what our relationship is. But, no matter how much I want to deny it.. I can't.

I'm falling in love with him, every minute of the day..

I'm not sure if he is to, but every night when we go to bed together, he kisses me goodnight and holds me. Not on the lips but on my forehead, temple, or even sometimes on my cheek.

I smile whenever he does, it's the best feeling. Because it really shows how much a person can care for someone they love. I'm not saying he loves me too.. but I won't like to give up hope.

Right now Stut is walking with me to the cafeteria  where other stormtroopers and generals come to eat at. 

Ben let me because he had a bunch of meetings to attend too, and I didn't want to go.

Me and Stut have become good friends, and I'm grateful for it, "I'll g-go get us some gr-grub," Stut says as we reach an empty table. As he walks away, I sit down awkwardly. Just as things calm down, two female generals sit down across from me.

"Hello Scavenger."

"Uh hi?"

One of them has brown hair with highlights, naturally curly. She had grey eyes and a small nose, attractive. The other had ginger hair. She was also very pretty, she had a few freckles on her face and had green eyes.

"My name is Kat," the ginger one said.

"And I'm Bronwyn," the other one said.

"Oh hello, my name is Rey."

"Mm we know, your the Supreme Leader's.. apprentice?" Kat said uncertain.

I shrug, "I suppose you can say that."

Stut finally came over with two trays of food. He handed me one while he kept the other. He then took off his helmet while he sat down. "Rey I-I suppose you finally met my sis-sisters."

"Oh! These are your sisters?" I say, pointing between Bronwyn and Kat.

He shrugged, "Yep."

"Oh.. your lucky," I compliment.

"Why's that?" Bronwyn asks.

"I don't have any siblings, I had parents that threw me away for money to go get drunk and high somewhere else, I don't even know if the're even alive anymore, I'm just a burden trying to make sense in this whole thing.."

Bronwyn came forward and sat down next to me and place a hand on my shoulder, "Hey.. you're no burden if you came this far in life, and also me and Kat were just in a meeting with Kylo and- "

"Oh my god! You should of seen him!" Kat butted in, " he was a mess! His mind was elsewhere in that meeting. You have to be god damn something to him because my lord he was terrible in there!"