The Wall Crossers

Jan 10 Mon - You Tell Her Yourself

Olivia's perspective

It is tenth January and I am to leave for the US in two days. I am at work. It is business as usual, at least through tomorrow. Then, I will no longer work here. Will no longer be in Berlin... after tomorrow.

I have given up on Anja returning. I know nothing and likely will not know more. Jelena will not speak to me. I do not know how to reach Anja's other good friend Margot. Elke is cool toward me. I think she knows about Leida. And Leida... I need to get a message to her—not to come to Berlin. I will not be meeting her, as she... as we had planned. The reasons for this are numerous. I just cannot take the hurt, we both will feel—to face each other and, What? Break up? How can you break up a fantasy?

I need to get help from Maren. But I have not had a chance.

All the girls are working today, as usual. Mid-morning Sgt Ellis comes in and announces a team meeting. He does not excuse me, even though I am a short timer. Everyone leaves their work, to follow him, except Maren hangs back.

I stand to follow the others, but then quicky approach her desk. She looks up at me, surprised. We have mostly avoided each other, since early November. Since that day of the... confrontation.

She is wearing the standard A-line office dress, with a light reddish-golden sunset-color collared blouse that matches so well her strawberry blonde hair.

I nervously say, "Maren... Uh, would you, Uh... go with me to the snack bar after the meeting? I want... I want to... speak with you."

She stares at me, her brown eyes framed in pretty lashes, but wrath issues forth cold from her heart right now. She answers, "What do you want to speak to me about, Reary?"

I know she does not trust me. She is so close to Leida. And I have not been warm to Leida, since we met a week ago. I have not responded to the messages she left for me.

"Please?" I beg.

She rolls her eyes, gets up, straightens her work, and says, "Come on, let's go to the meeting."

I follow her to where the others all sit, having kaffee and preparing to meet, in a corner conference room.

After the meeting, we all stand, and everyone heads back to work. I wait on Maren. She makes eye contact with me and sighs deeply. Then she nods her head toward the hall, telling me with this gesture, Let's go now.

We walk together in silence to the snack bar. I ask, "May I buy you something?" She sits at a table, looks up at me, and shakes her head No.

Maren's perspective

I am thinking of my need in all this. If Leida marries Olivia she will be unfulfilled in love. Then she will come to me in deep need, and I will kiss her and kiss her so that, when we break from that kissing, I will raise up my face to hers, and she will taste her sweet raw sex on my lips. Ohhh!... the fullness of wanton lust in my jittery heart and that twinge of need so inside me alive and throbbing down there! And then she will never want any other lover ever again. I cannot let Olivia escape. I need her to marry Leida, for my sake.

But I have to be controlled in this. I cannot lose control and win.

Olivia's perspective

I take a seat. She crosses her legs. Her arms. She looks past me, waiting.

Maren is a German girl with strawberry blonde hair, pretty face and brown eyes. Although she is very short, maybe 5'3", I know from experience she is a very strong woman, both physically as well as mentally. She has a beautiful body that turns men's heads, and womens' as well. She is about twenty-three. She is Leida's best friend. Of all the women at work, she is the one I most fear crossing. I must be careful here.