I didn't want that.
I didn't want so much.
I didn't want him to be gone. I didn't want him to hate me. I didn't want him to forget me.
I didn't want to kiss those girls. I didn't want to pretend to be someone different. I didn't want to be sexualized by people. I didn't want others to assume things about me.
Looking at everything, I didn't want to be that popular. I didn't want to be popular at all. I wanted to have a normal life with a normal job, normal friends and with him.
But I ruined all of this 5 years ago. If I could turn back time, I would. I wouldn't delete my accounts nor change my phone number. I wouldn't accept the contract. I would keep my office job. I would do so much. I would do everything, I regretted over the years, better. I would be completely happy. With him.
But it was too late. He probably hated me now. I would. If someone ghosted me all of a sudden without any explanation, I would hate them.
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The Fanfiction, MatsuHana
FanfictionHe left me and I couldn't take it. One day I stumbled upon Wattpad and it showed me a way to feel his love without him actually loving me. I still loved him, even after five years. If you love someone strong enough, you'll fall for them over and ov...
