I've been texting with kawa for a while now. Through him, my mental health got better and I started being more social. He helped me like Mattsun did and I started to develop feelings for him. Still, I couldn't let Mattsun go. He would always be the love of my life but people could have two loves of their lives, right?
I hoped so. Kawa really was the perfect boyfriend. He was caring and always there for me. He never judged me and accepted and supported me with everything I did. I really liked him.
He became my alternative drug. The alternative drug for Mattsun. The alternative drug that I used instead of the Fanfictions. I didn't need them as long as Kawa was there. As long as he was by my side, I didn't need the alternative world. The world that wasn't real. I didn't need to pretend to be someone I wasn't, living a life that wasn't mine. I could be myself.
And with all that, I gave up on the Fanfictions I've been writing. I had everyone finished already so nobody would complain about me not updating. Additionally, I put "I won't upload anymore" in my bio.
I got a lot of comments, telling me to upload more stories but I just ignored them. I never cared about them anyway. There was a ton of other xreader content they could read instead.
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The Fanfiction, MatsuHana
Hayran KurguHe left me and I couldn't take it. One day I stumbled upon Wattpad and it showed me a way to feel his love without him actually loving me. I still loved him, even after five years. If you love someone strong enough, you'll fall for them over and ov...
