The sound of ruffles woke me up from an evening nap as I observed the sky that had a dying out sunset, night slowly overtaking the day. "Fuck, fuck, where is it?" I heard Taehyung mumble to himself. I rubbed my eyes as I rested on my elbows, waking up completely. "Mouse?" I softly spoke, slightly scared of the look on his terrified face. He ignored me, making me speak again. "Taehyung, what's wrong?" I asked as he sat on the driver's seat, looking all up and down as he was searching for something. "One is missing!" He answered, rammaging through his stuff that was now scattered on the floor. "What is missing?" I confusedly questioned, to which he arrogantly answered. "What do you think it's missing? A daisy!" He raised his tone. "Calm down, it must be somewhere here." I spoke as I shifted myself, looking around. I scrunched down, not realising he was searching around my bag. My heart immediately jumped once I saw the daisy lying under the seat. "I found it! It must've slipped out, Mouse. It's fine now." I managed to smile as I turned around. What I saw Taehyung doing, made me completely stiffen as I felt my heart gave up on me.
There he was, confusedly observing my diary as he began reading through it. "Mouse." I quickly spoke, trying to reach for it. "What is this?" He questioned, his eyebrows furrowing at me in a non playful manner that made me stiffen even more. I placed a daisy inside the napkin, not being able to look at him. "A d-diary." I nervously mumbled. "Dahyun." He spoke in a disappointed voice as I tried to snatch the notebook away from him, but he moved it away so it was out of my reach. "I thought you could tell me everything. You said so, yesterday!" He raised his voice, making me immediately try to defend myself. "Why do you need a diary? Why can't you talk to me?!" He added, his voice becoming more agitated.
"How can I talk to you when we always end up like this!" I raised my voice too, shaking my head. He began turning the pages as if he was looking for something worth mentioning that would only add more fuel to the fire. "Mouse, give it back." I spoke to which he ignored, moving slightly away so I wouldn't be able to snatch it from him. He parted his mouth open, finally finding something interesting to use to get at me.
"But if I can't talk to Mouse, I have to talk to someone. Anyone. Regardless if they'd be able to listen or not. " He read out, clear disappointment appearing on his face. "It's not like that-" I tried to explain, but his eyes widened and his entire facial expression turned into a much darker and pain filled one. "What?" I asked in a timid tone, so scared of what he might read out.
"At this point, I'd rather be drugged than here with him, as much as I hate saying that." He read out as he immediately found my eyes and locked an eye contact. "No, Taehyung, that was in the spur of a moment." I spoke as I finally took away the notebook from him, tossing it by the side. He stared at me with shock on his face as his eyes began to water. "No, Mouse. It's not like that." I spoke and cupped his cheeks, feeling him slightly tense under my touch. I immediately flinched back, confused at his sudden stiffness. "You lied." He tried to blame it on me, but I immediately cut him off with a much more important lie. "You lied too. You're clenching under my touch." I said back in a cold tone as he immediately got more nervous. "Mouse. Have you been scratching yourself? Lift your sleeves up." I added as I stared him down. "I didn't." He immediately spoke, moving his covered arms away. "Please. Don't make this harder for the both of us." I said back, staring at his arms. He shut his eyes tight.
Not wanting to make it difficult, he slowly pulled up his sleeves. The sight of his red and scratched out arms that almost bled through made me shut my eyes and look away. "Dahyun." He spoke, trying to explain, but even he realised there wasn't really anything to say that would make it better. "We are both in the wrong here-" He began talking, but I immediately cut him off. "Both in the wrong?! I'm not hurting myself till I'm bleeding!" I raised my voice. "We both lied, yes, but my lie is dog shit compared to what you did!" I spoke in a frustrated manner.
