Various Poems

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Your electric blue eyes reminisce how good you are in electrifying me
Well now I'm in a dungeon of suffering, willingly sitting in an electric chair
Eternal sadness, the haunting of your kisses leads me astray and melancholy
Your heartsore words are more painful than falling on spiked stairs.

Where's the man who wiped my tears and offers me milk
Now he's the one who caused these tears and the reason why I can't sleep well
I don't need your call signs and nicknames, I just want my name to be engraved in your brain
Where's the man who put my initials to his necklace
Now he's the one who forgot 'bout me like the directions of a maze.

It's infuriating to be his old time new muse
It's so confusing that I don't know who's who
Toast for the left out and let's drink more booze
I thought he loved me, now I think I'm a victim on April Fools
Is it enough that the claw didn't grabbed her first
And that I'm always the last resort
The paperworks of stories cannot explain how it hurts
I ran through the narrow alley to go the alternative world.

Two hundred fifty six thousand, that's the tears I cry to make you my man
But all the effort was not worth it because why am I alone in this island?
You taught me to play the guitar to sing our theme song
But why am I writing these heartbreak lyrics for our breakup song
You earned my family's trust just to make me a fool in front of them
Crying on the couch, crying 'bout you and making my days dim
My miserable eyes and messy hair cannot overcome my rotting emotions.

You pick me up when I'm at my weakest
You pushed me down when I'm at my highest
You waited for the perfect time to leave me at the deep end
I kept on hoping you'd come back until it sink in
That I'm just a left out stuffed toy on a claw machine
I was the one you caught but not the one you wanted
You played with me so you won't feel sorry
You paid the prize even if you knew I wasn't worth it
Right at my best you left me hanging
The date that I taught was the day you'll bring a ring
It was actually the day you'll leave me dying.

I hope you remember it all too well
That the place you brought me was hell
Dear love, why do I feel this so much hate
I thought it was destiny it was actually a fiery fate
I don't want to be the forgotten game in an arcade
Neither the discarded recipe in a cafe
This love is in jeopardy and I kept on shouting "Mayday!"
Right at the ocean of sadness that will sooner drown me in heartaches
The stabs that are skin to bone feels like it will never fade
But the love will be the flowers I left dying that will sooner decay
Two hundred fifty six thousand tears for the crestfallen love that will never go away.