Various Poems

5. I Love You Only In Bed

Different love, different person, different mask, different version
I think I should only make love with you if you're on the mood then
When it's hard to endure the fact that you're sleeping with other women
I want to stick this certain phrase in my head, it's the scandalous "friends with benefits"

I guess there are a dozen rules in casual sex partners like they said
Like we flirt with whoever we want and never feel guilty in bed
Never let jealousy and unbearable envy prevail, like wishing the other is dead
I just want to make you remember how happy we were when we first met.

How did we end up this way? I never wanted to be a sex toy
I just want to love and make love with you like you're my boy
But I hate it when you feel disgusted in me just because I'm gay
And you letting other people say what they want to say.

You always look away when I say "I Love You" and never reply
But when I confess all I get was sighs, cries and never ending fights
This is like TharnType, but you will never get the man of your life
I'll be eternally happy if I can even receive one "I Love You Only In Bed" sarcastically while looking at me in the eye.

I'm so desperate for this kind of love that it truly hurts
Sex for fun, death as one, sin is done, lust has won
Apologies and sympathies for my loss, not my virginity but my dignity
Haven't found the one because I've been busy convincing I'm the only one
The only one who understands, you belong with me but you don't deserve me.

Shit! Is this even love or pertinacious obsession
People think I'm a mythomaniac sex chattel
My PhD and pricey education took a grave regression
The supposed to be doctor is now a sex slave of a habitué in motels.