Various Poems

6. bucket list

I like to have a boyfriend and shout in so much glee
Like making daily vlogs, and traveling to Venice, Italy
Making you breakfast with french toast and dried fish
Hugging with only underwear and tank tops on while doing the dishes
Sometimes fantasy twists reality and makes you believe that all is real...

And now that I have one, I have never thought that he would do everything for me
While I'm suffering and dying in a hospital bed he's doing my bucket list for me
Going to Italy, making me breakfast daily, and keeps on believing in make believe
It makes me so sad that he's about to end his first relationship in a grave on New Year's Eve.

"Bucket" in Tagalog is "Timba" and "Bakit" in English is "Why"
And let me ask you why, "why are doing this to me?"
Even though I'm dying, you're doing everything to make me breathe
I wish reality viciously punches you to the face and make you see...

That I'm not going to live a long life, and may end up being forgotten
But that stupid bucket list keeps you on loving and holding on to me
If I could just stand, I would stop you, 'cause your only hurting yourself
Completing that doesn't bring anything to normal and I already appreciated the love that you have gave me.

So please stop completing that bucket list, and complete your days sitting beside me.