Sukuna x Y/n || An Ancient Bond

05. A bond

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"You started this. Remember that."

How could I ever forget?

He puts me down on the window in the bedroom and sits beside me. He held my hand in case I slipped or fell asleep it was sweet of him but I acted like I didn't notice.

I started this weirdly special relationship between me and a curse.

He felt so much more humane than actual humans, at times I'd just think of him as a man and nothing more.

I'm still not sure what I mean to him. Whether he's just toying with me or does he actually care because at times he acts so different whenever I make a move on him. But I know that if I were to die he'd at least be sad.

Do I need to confirm his feelings for myself? Can't we just enjoy this life without any worrisome feelings?

But my feelings have grown too much for me to control them anymore it hurts to not be able to say them.

But then again I'd rather stay silent than him getting tired of me and abandoning me...

Ahhh it's tearing me apart. To say it or keep my mouth shut?

Even if he doesn't feel anything about me it's better to say it and not regret it in the end..

I look at the moon and sigh, at least it didn't have to worry about pleasing anyone. It was just there existing regardless of those around it.
Those who liked it looked at it and those who didn't ignore it and fell asleep.

He was also looking at the moon till I sighed and he turned towards me giving me all his attention.

"Is something the matter?"

His concern sounded so genuine I wanted to spit out everything right there and then.

"It's nothing."

I try to end the topic.

"It's not nothing if you're sighing about it, you dumb human."

He holds my hand firmly.

"Especially when you're with me and you're thinking about something else it obviously means something's bothering you, my little human."

"What would you know about worries Sukuna?"

"I don't have anything to worry about like you stupid humans worry about every small thing."

"Well, that's just how we are-"

"But I do care about what happens to you."

No, no, no, no, no God! Why did he have to say it with that kind expression on his face!?
It almost made my heart flutter! It's so hard to hide that!

"Why are you turning red?"

He places his hand on my forehead.

"You're not sick..so was it what I said that made you all red? That's adorable my little human."

"Yeah, it's your fault for saying that idiot."

"Trying to hide your embarrassment with foul words I see."

Ugh is there even anything he can't see through!?

"I won't hide it anymore like a fool there's nothing that can escape your sight is there?"

"Absolutely nothing when it comes to you."

He looked at my thin garments.

The corners of his mouth rose forming themselves into a seductive smirk.

I lean on him taking the initiative this time. I was done feeling sorry for myself.

"Well, then I hope you don't mind if I don't hide anymore. Can I ask the same of you to not hide anything from me?"

"Why would I?"

"Come to think I still don't know anything about you aside from your name."

"What would you like to know?"

"Well for starters, were you always a curse?"

"I used to be a human just like you."

"Until?"

"I killed hundreds of Jujutsu sorcerers and gained this power."

"I see.. What did you want so badly that you would go as far as this?"

"For fun."

"Is that all?"

"Yeah those Sorcerers are quite fun to play around with, but once I won it became plain and boring to deal with them so I killed them all and sought even greater power."

"And now you have it."

"I do still my life was boring till I came across you."

"Am I just entertainment for you? Someone to play with and throw away when you're done?"

I stopped leaning on him and looked him straight in the eyes.

"Well one might say that you have certainly added fun to my life and in a way you are entertaining to be around, problems always find you no matter where you go you sure are troublesome for a tiny little human."

I should've expected that answer...I should have.. I should have..I should have!

I feel short of breath, I don't know what expression I am making but I'm sure it's ugly. My eyes fill up with tears and I can't even move to wipe them they just keep rushing out of my eyes without stopping. Why am I sad? I thought I was prepared to hear whatever he says no matter whether it would be good or bad.

He looks at me normally like he doesn't even know what he said.

"Ah, it's too good.."

"I'm glad you can enjoy my horrendous face."

"Not that Baka ga."

"Then what!?"

I finally wipe my tears away in anger.

He stops my hand and licks the tears off my face with his tongue.

"What are you-?"

He kisses me, I didn't want it, I don't want an empty kiss with no emotions behind it so I try to fight him off.

"The more you fight the more I want to make you mine."

I bite his tongue as hard as I can making him bleed he finally stops and licks off the blood from my lips then his.

"I don't want this empty infatuation.."

"Then what do you want?"

"Is it too much of me to ask for love from a curse? I suppose it is"

I said in a mocking tone.

"I'm sure that I can satisfy you in any way you want."

"If I just wanted to be satisfied I could've just become a prostitute instead of working like shit every day."

"Why don't you just get it?"

"Get what?"

And I couldn't hold back anymore.

"THAT I WANT YOUR LOVE NOT YOUR DICK YOU DUMB ASS!"

I yelled in his face at the top of my lungs. I wanted both but this wasn't the time for it-