Chains

Chapter 25

"feel better?" he snuggles up against me and nods. his stomach has become slightly round from the amount i've gotten him to eat. luckily...Willingly. his parents decided to give us some privacy after handing us a glass of water and a glass of milk as well as a glass of juice. why all three? aparently they have different advantages and Rain is lacking all. so their there for him to try. "drink something, Rain." i say, trying to get him to co-oporate but he just keeps falling to sleep. and i don't understand why! 

the pain and suffering i'm going through just because i can't figure out why he's acting this way... i wish i could take his suffering away. i really do. but yestirday was worse then the previous and today he's not even attempting to get out of bed or deattatch himself from me. it's like all of his strength is going to keeping his arms and legs tightly wrapped around me. honestly- i had to pee with him strapped to my back.....so awkward. 

i sit him up, his eyes haven't fully opened since they shut the other day. he's got bags and honestly looks like the life is being sucked out of him. "knock knock-" i look up to the door, not having the heart to cope with this worry and to be pissed and Rain is deffinatly more important to me, so we'll stick with my worry. "how is he?" i sigh and shake my head, practically putting the water into his mouth so all he has to do is swollow. 

"he's just-" i shrug, feeling my eyes burn with a need i haven't dealt with in so long. the titan sits down next to us with worried eyes. 

"he really doesn't look good." my stomach twists before i burry my face in Rain's shoulder to hide the sudden explotion of tears. "alright-" he whispers, rubbing my back while i shake and silently cry. i take deep breaths and hold him so tightly.

"i just don't know what to do." i whisper, feeling so shameful and weak right now....but i don't care, my mate is suffering and i can't do anything to help.

"why don't you take him outside for a few? i was also told to bring him these." he holds up a small tablet. i look to him, "vitimens." he shrugs and i nod, yes...he needs these. no doubt he has a deficiancy somewhere. i place it in his mouth along with some water and like anything else he swollows and continues with his clingy, sleeping state. i stand up. not caring how either of us look as i slowly take him outside, holding onto him as if he really was dying. 

what happened to the confident giggles and the sweet compliments, Rainbow? 

i step outside, my wings dragging behind me. the others clearly see i'm not in a normal mood. in fact. they've never seen me like this. no one has, because i've never needed to feel this way. i'm grieving! 

i take him outside when i see a blanket has be placed out near a fresh spring stream, under a tree which leaves are like thick vines that look as if their curtains. his mum kisses his forehead worriedly and leaves us. i take him over and lie down with him. i don't even think he notices that we went outside. it's like he's comatosed. i make him as comfortable as i can, laying down so he can lay, curled up to my chest. i almost cry when i hear him hum. 

"good boy-" i whisper, trailing my hand down his back soothingly. the breeze is fresh and brushes up against the vines and the leaves, brushing Rain's hair out of place. the treakle of water from the stream is soothing to listen to, the beams of light through the leaves suplying natural warmth while the shade from the tree stops it from getting humid and keeps us cool. it's all very surreal.

"-careful, he's fast asleep." i slowly open my eyes at the sound of whispering. opening my eyes to find Rain with a rabit in his lap, still on my torso, the plants and wildlife in this area has grown quite a bit. but i'm more focused on the dead Rain who's smiling weakly to me, "after-" he's cut off by a yawn that nearly knocks him over, "sorry, afternoon." he hums tiredly. i sit up and give him a warm hug.