You Left | l.h.

8

The next morning I slipped out of Luke's arms, taking off his shirt, and putting my clothes on. It was still very early, the sun hasn't even risen yet, but I needed to leave.

I knew that today, things were going to go back to how they have been and that upset me deeply and staying in his arms, waiting for him to wake up only made it worse.

I headed to the lake, snuggling into my jacket as much as possible. I don't think anyone was up yet, not after last night, so I took a seat and watched the sunrise.

I didn't feel like doing a lot of thinking because thinking would lead to me being sad, so I headed back to my cabin to see Calum passed out. I hope he wasn't too worried about me last night, if he was at all.

"Hey-woah." Calum said, sitting up too fast.

I, thankfully, had some pain relievers with me to give to him because he was in desperate need for them. He didn't seem to be questioning my whereabouts so I assume he was too drunk last night to even realize I was gone.

"Calum, can we get an early start on leaving? I'll drive." I said quietly.

"What happened last night?" He questioned, looking me in the eyes.

I know he could tell something was wrong but I had to really think if I wanted to tell him what really happened and I just don't think I was ready but before I knew it tears were streaming down my face and he was rushing over to pull me into his chest.

I feel like such an idiot, last night couldn't of been anymore perfect and it was with my best friend, ex best friend, whatever, but now things go back to the way they were and that's what I don't like.

I'm not even going to get my hopes up and think "hey, maybe things will go back to the way they were now" because that's not going to happen. I don't know why he did what he did with me, with me because I thought he hated me.

Thinking about all of this made my head hurt so I pulled back from Calum, shaking my head and telling him I would explain later before we got our stuff and headed out.

No one was awake yet so we threw our stuff in the back and were on our way. I knew it would be a quiet drive because I offered to and I wanted Calum to get some more rest, and that's what he did. Here's to another two hours of roads.

-

"You're a real bítch, you know that?" I heard a familiar voice behind me as I exited the school.

"What are you doing, Luke? Are you going to start messing with me now too or what?"

"Shut up. You left, Evie, you just fùcking left." I started laughing.

"Are you being serious right now?" I said between breaths, noticing Calum was walking over but wasn't breaking up whatever this was yet.

"Yes, I am. We have amazing sèx and I wake up and you're gone, Eves, you just left." I could see the hurt in his face and hear it in his voice and I almost caved, but I didn't.

"I left because I knew you would, you already left months ago. You don't get to talk to me about anyone leaving when you left with no fùcking reasoning besides the fact you got tired of me!" I shouted, running off.

I heard someone calling my name and I figured it was Luke, but Calum didn't let him run after me thankfully. I should probably be mad at what Luke blurted out but no one besides Calum was around so I don't care.

I wasn't even ready to face him after that so I just went straight home, knowing he wouldn't be far behind me. I still couldn't get over Luke and the audacity he had to talk to me about leaving.

My phone started ringing and it was that guy, Derek. I hadn't talked to him in quite a while but I just could not bring myself to pick up the phone right now.

"You had sèx with him, that's what happened?" Calum questioned, clearly trying to be calm as he placed his keys on the counter.

I somehow didn't know how to respond suddenly when all he needed was a yes or no answer, but I just ended up nodding by head, informing him that yes, I did indeed have sèx with my ex best friend.

"Just why?"

"I was leaving the party and he came out after me, we basically agreed to a normal best friend night but things got heated. We were both sober and both knew what we were doing."

"So, you don't regret it?"

"Not at all, I just regret everything else that's happened between us, the bad stuff that is." He shook his head up and down slightly.

"As long as you don't regret it. Besides that, you alright?" He hugged me and pulled away shortly after.

"I'm doing better, Calum. I promise, and it's all thanks to you, best friend."

-

I might start doing little question things so

Question: if you had the option of actually having sèx with your favorite band member, sunshine, whatever, would you? Like, really think about it. It's easy to say "omg yes I would totally fùck him." But if you actually could, would you?