You Left | l.h.

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Graduation had went well, it was bit more stressful then planned and didn't go exactly how I once thought it would, but all that mattered was that I was out of here, I was free, and done with high school.

I hadn't talked to Luke since that night besides graduation day. I had snuck out early the next morning with no intention of talking to him after that. I knew graduation was soon and nothing had changed between us. We were still being confusing so I assumed it would be best to graduate, move on from life, and do my best to forget about him.

We had congratulated each other, he gave me a big long hug, then I was on my way. I could tell, that day, he was still mad at me for running off after we had sèx but, in all honesty I think even he knew he had no right to be mad, not after everything he had put me through.

I was currently in the car with Calum and I had no clue where the boy was taking me. He claimed it was a surprise but he didn't seem too thrilled about it and I had a bad gut feeling but I stayed quiet.

We hummed along to the songs playing on the radio, lost in our own little worlds. I would occasionally glance over at him and he always had a straight face and I wanted to know why and where the hell we were going. Calum is always this happy ball of energy, suddenly he's quiet and lost in thought.

"Calum, where are we going?" I asked once more, he didn't respond until a minute later when we pulled into an apartment complex.

"We're here." He said nervously.

I followed him out of the car, stretching for a moment before looking around. Once I did it made my stomach turn, I knew where we were because we were where I just was a little over a week ago. Luke's.

I gave him a questionable look but he shrugged it off, not really saying anything, just gesturing for me to follow him, so I did. I followed him all the way up to Luke's apartment, as I assumed that's where we were headed.

I was even more confused when he just walked in, not even knocking. I never thought they were that close, I still had no reason to think they were. I stood outside of the apartment for a minute before Calum finally turned around and pulled me in.

I walked in to Luke sitting on the couch, a serious look plastered on his face, deep in concentration. I looked at Calum for what seemed to be the billionth time yet and he gave me nothing but an apologetic look.

"What's going on?" I tapped my foot, making Luke shoot up.

"We have some things to talk about." He said, acting as if Calum wasn't even here.

"No, Luke, I'm 18 now. You left me when I needed you most, do you understand that? You left me with nothing you were the only thing I had left!" I said, finally getting it off my chest.

"Baby, don't-"

"Don't call me that." I spat.

"Look, I made sure you had Calum okay? He came and did all the things I did for you, so, why does it matter?" My mouth fell agape and I was speechless for a couple minutes, tears brimming at my eyes as I looked to Calum.

"You were only there because he made sure, because he- oh my god." I whispered turning away to walk out them both calling my name to stop me I bitterly spun around.

"Luke, you don't get it. I've been in love with you for what, 7 years now? 7. I don't give a fuck if you hired the most famous person in the world to be there for me, it wasn't YOU! At the end of the day, sure, you made sure someone was there for me but you still left me heartbroken, you still chose jocks and perfect pretty girls over me and I swear to god luke nothing, and I mean nothing will ever be able to change that. I'll always love you just bc the love is so strong but I don't see this underlining hate going away for you anytime soon."

"And you Calum, you were my best friend. You knew what he did, obviously, and you still went through with it you only cared simply because someone was paying you, great to know the two people I have cared about most have both fùcked me over tremendously. Hope you guys are proud, you both broke me again."

I went to turn away one last time.

"Don't be mad at him, he never took the money, he didn't want to, he genuinely wanted to be there for you. You know that time I came to school and I said I had just fallen off someone's motorcycle? That was a lie, Calum beat the shít out of me, Eves, he didn't even know you and even he understood what I must've done to you yet somehow I couldn't and I can't explain how sorry I am for that. You're right I thought making sure you had someone would make it perfectly okay and I didn't stop to think "hey, I may be giving her someone but she's still losing me her best friend of her whole life" but I just want to make sure you know it hurt me too and don't scoff. There's a lot of things I wish I could tell you but they need to stay kept secret as of right now, but I love you too Eves, ive been in love with you probably since we were younger I just didn't know what it was. I lost you too, just because I'm the reason we stopped talking doesn't mean I completely wanted it. I still lost the best thing that's ever happened to me and you can walk out of that door right now, I just needed you to know that."

"Calum let's go." I whispered trying not to break down yet before we could make it out of the door I did one last thing,

I walked to luke, cupped his cheeks, leaned up, and kissed him as passionately as I could.

"I'll always love you, Goodbye luke." I whispered centimeters away from his lips and ran to Calum, leaving the one person I wanted most behind.

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