𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄: 𝐠𝐨𝐣𝐨 𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

(xxiii) love

y/n sighed as gojo's grip on her tightened. his arms around her, his head resting on top of hers.

"satoru, why aren't you letting go?", she questioned, listening to his heart, which was racing.

"because when i do, you'll go back to hating me", he whispered.

she pulled away when he said it, looking at him wordlessly and hooking two fingers around his blindfold to lift it up.

his eyes, ever so pretty, looked at her, pleading her to tell him otherwise. she looked into them, her hand, on impulse, coming to touch his face.

she didn't realise how or why. but she leaned in, and his lips met hers. one of his hands cradled her head as he bent down, his other arm resting on her lower back.

it felt familiar and comfortable. for a few moments, it felt as if everything was falling into place.

but y/n realised how she really felt. she found the answer to his question. she pulled away suddenly.

she remembered that everything was in fact, not okay.

gojo waited patiently for her to say something. but what she said was far from what he hoped.

"i'm sorry, i shouldn't have done that"

"why?", he asked

"this was a mistake, satoru."

"y/n..", he took off his blindfold, staring at it, "i'm sorry for everything i've done"

she couldn't get herself to look at him.

"i know you are", she said quietly, "it's not enough"

she sat back down on the bed as he took a few steps back from her.

"oh", he put his blindfold back on and adjusted his jacket, "i'll go tell shoko you've woken up."

she nodded, laying her face in her hands.

gojo went to knock on the door to shoko's room. it swung open.

"yes gojo?", she asked

"y/n woke up", he informed her. he tried really hard to form something that looked like a smile.

"how did she wake up?!", shoko asked, not noticing his expression at first, "what about her cursed energy levels, they were so low.... satoru?"

"yeah?"

"why don't you look happy about it?", she asked, but soon realised that he wasn't gonna answer her. "okay i'll go see her"

"can i just wait in your room?", he requested

"yeah, i'll be back", she nodded, letting him into her room.

he waited till she was gone, and then he walked over to sit in the armchair in the corner of the room.

he stared at the ceiling. his vision blurred. his chest felt so heavy he could hardly breathe. tears ran down his face. he moved forward to rest his face in his hands, a small, muffled sob escaping him.

he finally understood how she'd felt all this time.

ieri walked into the room where y/n was, taken aback at the sight before her.

she was sitting on the floor, playing with kuro who had snuck into her room upon realising she was awake.

"y/n what the fuck happened?", she asked, and y/n looked up

"what- oh yeah the coma part", she looked, in all honesty, tired. "i have power now or whatever"

"okay...", shoko walked towards her, sitting down on the floor in front of her

y/n sighed audibly, "wait, i'll explain"

shoko listened intently as she finally told her the whole reason for satoru leaving her, right upto her dad's cursed technique which prevented her from dying.

"y/n..", shoko didn't know what to say once she was done, "what did you tell satoru?"

y/n sighed, running her fingers through kuro's fur.

"did you tell him you don't love him anymore?"

"ieri senpai, why are you asking me this?", she questioned

"he looked weird earlier"

"no i didn't tell him that", y/n sighed

"then what-"

"i don't wanna talk about it", she said in a low voice

".... okay", shoko got up from where she was sitting, "should i leave or?.."

"yup"

shoko went back to her room, turning the key in the lock before opening the door.

"gojo?", she called out as she walked in

gojo inhaled sharply, wiping his tears. "hey shoko"

ieri was.. surprised, to say the least. gojo probably thought she wouldn't notice how puffy his deep blue eyes were. he was past caring, at this point.

she had never seen him cry. in the many years she'd known him. not once. he didn't look like he wanted to talk either.

she sat on the bed, pointing to her couch. "go to sleep"

he nodded silently, humming. he laid his head against the arm of the couch but sleep was out of question. he couldn't sleep cause it hurt. it hurt so much.

"you understand, don't you, kuro?", y/n asked, gazing at the dog, "he asked me if i love him."

kuro walked towards her, holding out his paw for a handshake. as if to say he understood.

"i do", she held onto his paw, "i love him. i love him
but love is not enough"

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summary: gojo is heartbroken lol

vote if you liked the chapter.

this is the longest i've gone without writing proper smut in a fanfic. should i write?

also also y'all remember that one flashback in chapter 3 where gojo was breaking up w y/n. she asked him what was wrong and he said 'they were a mistake'. and y/n told him the same thing just now.