Unknown Caller (Lucas) WayV 2

48. Why come now?

Why couldn't you just say that she likes me and there is nobody else she wants to be with other than me 'cause that's how I feel, but I do love her?

Alexandra is trying to figure out and help a friend I get it but she went through the same shit that I am going through now so she better know how I'm feeling.

But I get that wine is complicated I said that I wouldn't give up but I didn't give up I'm just giving it an end 'cause I can't keep on dealing with this.

I stopped working as much as I did before because I wanted to be with her, I stepped aside knowing she had a better relationship with my friend than me. I pushed my whole life almost away just to have her beside me.

Falling for Y/n was not a plan at all but it just happened and I wanted to figure it out altogether. Y/n has never thought about how I felt, to be honest, that's what I think. But I should give her a call after all she is the person I love.

*hearing something from the other room*

Xiaojun: I understand but you should call him

Lucas: you are talking to Y/n?

Xiaojun: Hush! *puts the phone on speaker*

Y/n: *speaking from the phone* I like Lucas, if I didn’t like him why would I date him and stay with him and give my attention to him? I just froze, I am also not 100% sure about my feelings because of the anxiety inside of me…

Xiaojun: it's normal that sometimes people are unsure about how they feel

Y/n: I have to attend work now, tell me if anything happens to Lucas *hangs up*

Lucas: I know she is sad about it and all, but I don’t care anymore. I am exhausted having a relationship with someone who is never actually doing anything to keep this relationship going

The next day- Y/n’s point of view
I didn’t sleep well after our breakup. My head has been telling me all kinds of things. Sometimes my little voice says it’s a good thing because now I have a lot of time to heal other times it says I can't heal on my own.

I didn’t come home before 2 AM, I worked two shifts at once because I called in sick the last week. I was sick and I was in shock after Xiaojun confessed to me. I wake up to the sound of our doorbell, someone has been trying to get in for a long time.

I heard it the first time but thought it was the ringing inside my head and not in real life. Half awake I walk all the way to the door that is five meters away from my room half-naked, or I am wearing shorts and a blouse.

First I thought I was seeing people, until I heard the voice and the lightning hit me. I was fully awake and the person walked behind me when I sat down on the couch. No idea why and no idea what.