Shattered or not? (Dean Ambrose)#wattys2015

Chapter 9

Marissa's pov

 last night with Dean was sort of a mistake. I had slept with him and did it over and over all night long. i know he's still my husband but i need to figure out what's right for my kids and me. Do i take this man back or do i just levae him. nothing will compare to the decision i would make. My kids need a father but do we have to be together for them to be happy? 

Dean layed next to me asleep. His arms around me. i had his shirt on and was actually snuggled in with him. I enjoyed every moment but i can't be a woman who keeps letting her  husband belittle her and make her feel like she needs the man to be happy. i need to figure out what i want and who i really am. Do i go pass this and make a new life alll over again or do i let this man stay in my life an dwork it all out?

I remove Dean's arms around me and quietly walk into the bathroom. i see myself in the mirror but i don't recognize her at all. I feel like someone else is in my body and i'm just a stranger living in somone elses body. I see a heart broken girl who is lost in everything since hse made thta decision to leave everything she had behind for a normal life with her kids a girl who didn't fight for what she wanted in life. who is that girl i can't even tell. I see my own reflection but i am not the same. S0omehting in me has changed and i'm not the happy girl i once was after all the chaos i went through years ago. Why can't i find my happy life? Will my children go through what i am going through. I ook away from the mirror and hop into the shower. i let the warm steaming water fall on me and it relaxes me. I then feel a pair of arms around me. I knew it was Dean so i didn't turn around.

"You know you  look beautiful today."He says kissing my cheek.

"Dean wat did last night mean to you?"I asked.

"It mean that we still have a chance. We can fight everything around us and that you and i still love each other deeply. We wanna be together but i'm the one who is causing all this pain. Lastnight was for us to reassure oursleves what we wanted. i know who i want and i hope you know what you want."He says.

"Let's just see where it takes us from here.you got about a year to prove to me you are serious about us."I said.

"I will prove it.i'll dump Kelsey but first gotta findout if she pregnant. i still have my doubts knowing we just you know less than a month and all."He says.

"Just prove you still want me and will go from there."I said.

He stays silent but then starts kissing me. He then turns me around and kisses me fully on the lips. He asks for entrace with his toung which i allow and kiss back as well. we shower as we make love in the shower .

After our little session in there we both exit the bathroom and change into our clothes. 

"Babe ill be right back i need to go do what i need to do."He says.

"okay baby i trust you."I said.

"And i love you."He says kissing me as he heads for the door and leaves.

i really do hope Dean is being serious about us. Our marriage is in play and i don't wanna file for divorce but if it comes to that then i guess it'll be that in the end. 

Isa's pov

 Jake had been with me all night. i was surprise how calm my little sinblings were with him here all the time. Mom hadn't called last night like she always had but maybe she was with dad. i was in the kitchen getting breakfast ready for my little siblings when Jake cam ein.

Hey beautiful. Last night was amazing."He says kissing me.

"Jake do you put a condom?"I ask out of the blue.

"No baby.Why would we need one?"He says.

"You do realize i can get pregnant right?"I  said annoyed by his answer.

"Baby your on the pill so we should be fine."he says calmly.

"Your mistaken on that. Maybe it's some other skank your thinking of cause i am not on the pill."i said.

"Wait what."He says with his eyes wide open.

" Yeah so if i get pregenat it will be on you."I said moving pass him .

He grabs my arm and turns me around. 

"You mean to tell me i have been having sex with you without us having a plan b."He says confused.

"That's what i'm saying so be prepare for when our child comes cause this is illegal in a way."i said.

"Look if it happens i'll take care of it. we won't have to be parents at a young age."He says panicking now.

"Well it's my body and if i decide to keep the kid then i will. you will have to provide for my child whether you like it or not."I siad.

"Isa you will give up that bay if it happens. we can not afford to be parnets at  young gae.'He syas.

"welll you should have thought about it before forcing me to do it every night you've been here and all the times we did it last night."I spat.

"You are my woman you will do as i say."He says angrily.

"Not really cause you know what we are over.Forget about me and whatever we had. You come near my family and i again i swear to you it will be the worst mistake you make."I said.

"i'll be around whether you like it or not. Your brothers and sister love having meariund. They know i'm your boyfriend and they know what we do."He syas smirking.

"Only you would tell them you sicko How dare you tell my baby brother's and sister what we do."I said pissed now.

"Careful what you ask for right now baby cause you end it now it will be a lot worse for you."He says,.

"You know i'll risk it. i will not be your love toy whatever i was to you anymore. i thought you were a good guy but i was wrong. I don't need you and i can take you down no matter what happens."I said with confidence.

"We will see. Just know i know your weaknesses."He says.

I was left speechless knowing he as been investigating me and i need to figure out how to escape from his threats. He leaves and i just realize that this guy can ruin my families life just like mines would be. What should i do?Right now i need to come up with something to keep him wrapped in my finger to control him,

So what you guys think? Sorry if  the chapter is boring. Just bringing in the drama more.Please comment and vote.