Back Series 1: Back To You (BxB)

Kabanata 27

Clayn

"Pia, ba't kasama mo si Clayn?"

Jaden, standing beside us with his curious eyes on us. I instantly brushed off my tears as I look away.

"J-jaden..." utal na sambit ni Pia, halata ang kaba sa binitawan niyang salita.

Dali-dali akong tumayo para umalis na. Before I can walk away from the table, Jaden held my wrist, stopping me midway.

Hindi ko siya liningon. Nasasaktan pa rin ako sa nalaman kahit wala pa 'yong kompirmasyon mula sa kanya. I just can't help it. Tao lang ako.

"Clayn, what happened? We need to talk, babe." he mumbled softly.

Hindi ko siya pinansin bagkus ay binawi ko ang kamay ko mula sa kanya at dali daling lumabas. I heard him called me but I didn't look back. Ramdam kung sumunod siya but I'm not in the mood now.

Alam kong dapat ko-kompirmahin ko na 'yon sa kanya, especially now that he's here but I'm really not in the mood right now. Gusto kong umiwas sa katotohanan. Hindi ko matanggap if ever.

While I was in the middle of the parking, he grabbed my arms that made me turned around and bumped on his hard chest.

My heart beats faster, instantly. I push him away so there will be a distance between us.

Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. I tried to withdraw my arms again from his grip but he's gripping it tight enough so I can't get away and it doesn't hurt me at the same time.

Bagsak lang ang tingin ko. Naalala ko na naman ang sinabi ni Pia kanina na nagsanhi ng pagbabadya ng aking mga luha muli.

"Clayn, let me explain." He started.

I'm guessing he already knew what Pia told me. And why is he not denying it? Is it true?

Ang ganong ideya ay mas lalong nakapagpabagsak sa aking nararamdaman. Nasa gitna kami ng parking, harap ng cafe. Hindi alintana ang init.

"Clayn, whatever she said—"

I cut him off.

"You're not denying. So it's true? Tell me." I asked desperately. Ngayon ay inangat ko na ang aking tingin sa kanya, sinalubong ang titig niya.

Hindi agad siya umimik. Tila pinag-isipan ang sasabihin sa akin. I heard Pia called Jaden from the entrance of the cafe but he ignored her.

He was looking at me, hurt and sad in his eyes. Hindi ko alam if paniniwalaan ko ba 'yon o hindi. Baka dinadaya lang ako ng aking mga mata. I don't think I could trust him again if its true.

I heard him drew a deep breathe before meeting my gaze with his regretful eyes.

"Yes, but—"

I cut him off again by raising my hand. Not wanting to hear more from him. All I want is his confirmations and he did, right in front of me. That's what I want.

Kasabay nun ang pagbagsak sa mga luha kong kanina pa nagbabadya. Para akong nawindang sa nalaman. Sumikip ang aking dibdib. Parang huminto ang ikot ng mundo at oras sa akin.

I couldn't moved. My mind is blank, unable to process his answer.

Ang sakit sa dibdib na malamang ginamit lang pala ako. After all those time, he's being plastic towards me?

Ang sakit sa dibdib. The lump on my throat made me swallowed hard.

The memories of our date last time sa Tagaytay crossed my mind.