Back Series 1: Back To You (BxB)

Kabanata 34

Clayn

It was been a month since our escapades in Zambales, in their private island. During that month, palagi lang kaming magkasama. He still courted me though. My friends already knew about us and they are used to us being together always.

Pagkabalik naman ng school pagkatapos ng sembreak, Jaden approached me again. He wanted to talked to me, he wanted to explain.

In order to gave closure between us, pinaunlakan ko ang kanyang gusto. I texted Cade na medyo matagalan ako since he's waiting in his car, papauwi na kami since the school is already done.

"Clayn..." Jaden with his sad voice.

We are at the school lounge. Wala na masyadong tao.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin at tiningnan siya sa mata. He looked hurting. I can see in his eyes. It expresses so much pain and sadness. I am confused kung bakit siya malungkot at nasasaktan?

I didn't speak. I let him explain his side.

"I'm sorry... I don't want to lie to you. I regret it okay. Totoo I used you..." his voice shakes. "... at first pero kalaunan, I've fallen for you." Nahihirapan niyang sambit.

I was taken aback. So his feelings were true? My chest ached hearing him saying those so hard. Parang sobrang hirap noon para sa kanya.

He closed his eyes tightly like he's trying to suppress his tears.

He then heaved a sigh.

"I like you... I l-love y-you rather. Gusto ko lang sabihin sa'yo 'to kasi I can't keep it to myself. Alam kong disappointed ka sa nagawa ko sa'yo pero I just want you to know that my feelings are sincere, and it was never a lie..."

He looked so vulnerable right now. My heart sank hearing his strained voice. Kahit masakit 'yong ginawa niya sa'kin, I'd learn to forgive him.

"I know na may bago ka na. It hurts to know pero in order to move on, I need to let this out and tell this to you. I'm sorry Clayn and may you forgive me..." his voice broke.

I couldn't help it. Niyakap ko na siya ng mahigpit dahil sa sobrang awa. It looks like he needs it. He needs someone to comfort and I was there, as a friend.

"I forgive you... but I got hurt too." Ang aking nasabi.

Humagulhol na siya sa iyak. He hugged me back tightly and buried his face on my shoulder.

"A-alam k-ko wa-ala na akong chance sa'yo. In that short period of time, I learned to love you Clayn. And I lose my chance. My wish is that you're happy with your new now..."

I tapped his back.

"You'll eventually get over me as time passed by..."

Ang aking hiling na sana, he will be freed from his feelings for me. When we were together back then, I felt his affection. He never failed to made me feel it. Pero maybe fate had some other plan for the both of us.

Hinatid ako ni Cade sa classroom namin. He kissed my forehead just like what he always do before I go in.

"See you later... I love you."

I just nodded and my face heat up. "See you later..."

Hindi ko pa siya masagot ng I love you. Plano ko na sagutin siya sa kanyang birthday. It was one week from now. I'm so excited at the same time nervous.