Back Series 1: Back To You (BxB)

Kabanata 48

Clayn

Our talked yesterday is kind of emotional. Sa gabi no'n, paulit-ulit na naglalaro sa aking isipan ang kanyang mga sinabi. And his face... when he cried. Every time I remembered how his eyes shows in pain, my chest throbbed in familiar way.

Kapag naalala ko ang kanyang mukhang nasasaktan at puno rin ng hinanakit, hindi mapigilan ng aking pusong sumakit. I don't know why. But that's what I felt.

Ngayong araw, hindi ko alam kung papasok ba ako sa trabaho. I should be but I don't want to see him now. Gusto kong iwasan siya. Countless reason and I can't point it out.

Dumiretso na ako sa dinning area para mag-agahan at doon naabutan ko si Mommy at Daddy. Mommy is frying egg while Dad is drinking his coffee while reading a newspaper.

Pagkapasok ko palang ay agad na sumalubong sa akin ang mga mapanuri at kuryosong mga mata nila. Tumikhim ako pagkapasok at binati sila at hinalikan sa pisngi bago umupo.

Tahimik nila akong pinagmasdan. Ramdam kong may gusto silang itanong pero pinipigilan ang sarili. Ako naman ay tahimik nalang na kumain tutal may pagkain na sa hapag.

Egg, hotdogs and rice. While I was eating, my mind wander for the odds that me and Cade will see each other inside that building. He's a busy person kaya hindi naman siguro kami magkakasalamuha, right?

But the last time, we still saw each other and the worst is we were alone together inside the lift. Posible nga bang makikita ko siya ngayon?

Nahinto lamang ang aking pag-iisip nang magsalita si Daddy.

"I guess our son's name was finally free from all the accusations. Here's one article about the issue and also the pres con yesterday." Binalingan ko si Dad at masaya ang kanyang mukha. Si Mommy naman ay dali daling lumapit kay Daddy para tingnan ang newspaper na binabasa niya.

"Oh my!" Mommy looked relieved and glad that finally I am now free from all of that accusations but my mood right now is not very well.

Dapat masaya ako pero lumilipad ang utak ko sa ibang bagay.

"That's a relieved. Hindi ako papayag na paratangan nalang ng gano'n ang anak natin. He's not low like anybody else. Pinalaki natin siya ng may dignidad. Right? Paulo?" mommy said with a hint of irritation.

"Definitely!" Sang-ayon ni Dad kay Mom.

I smiled at them. Para kahit papano, I can show to them that I appreciated what they did just so I can clear my name. Lumipad pa nga sila dito. I am so grateful to have a parents like them.

"But Mom, Dad, it's still up to people if they'll believe it or not."

"This still helps you for your future clients, son. So basically... this is a great thing. Having a clean image can appeal you to your future clients."

I just shrugged at Dad's comment. Hindi naman talaga iyon nagma-matter sa akin. I am relieved that we have finally released a statement about my innocence but I don't care about it anymore.

What I care more now is Cade. Yes, him! Hindi ko alam kung maliwanag ba 'yong sinabi ko sa kanya kahapon. I just hope he get my point because I am not up for something with him. What I want is pure business and nothing more.

"By the way, bunso. Anong pinag-uusapan niyo kahapon ni Cade?" si Mommy na bumaling na sa akin na naniningkit ang mga mata.

Napahinto ako sa pagsubo at nag-angat ng tingin sa kanila. They both looked at me curiously. Muntik na akong mabulunan. I have a feeling this is what they want to ask but I didn't know they will really going to ask me about it.