Back Series 1: Back To You (BxB)

Kabanata 32

Clayn

I ignored him.

Nagmamadali akong pumunta sa sasakyan ni kuya at sumakay sa shotgun seat. Bago ko pa maisara ang pinto, Cade immediately stop it by holding the upper part of the door. Itinukod niya ang isang braso sa sasakyan para suportahan ang sarili. Ang isang paa naman ay inangat niya sa sahig ng sasakyan.

He lean a little towards me habang matamang nakatitig sa akin ang itim at seryoso na mga mata. I was shocked. I could feel my throat dried up because of the intensity of his eyes.

Mahirap akong napalunok. My heart is pounding wildly seeing his serious face. Sobrang sakit ng dibdib ko dahil sa lakas ng pintig nito.

The near light made his dark aura visible. Kahit na ganun, nakitaan ko rin ng pagsusumamo ang kanyang mga mata. Aside from it, I don't know if my eyes was tricking me when I saw he's hurt too.

Agad ko iyong iwinaglit at nanatili ang blankong mukha ko. I was hurt and I am sad. I am frustrated also. Hindi sa kanya pero sa sarili. Naiinis ako sa sarili dahil gan'to ako makapag-react.

Where in the first place I'm the one who doesn't want to publicize our status. Dapat hindi ako magre-react ng gan'to. I should be understanding them, right? But damn it! It still hurt like hell.

"Baby..." he muttered almost like a whisper. Puno ng pagsusumamo ang tinig. His voice is husky, too.

Hindi ako makapagsalita. Nanatili akong tahimik.

"I'm sorry... do you want us to tell them now?... Na may nagmamay-ari na sa akin?... At ikaw 'yon? I am just waiting for your permission baby..." he sounds so serious about it.

I just sighed.

Hindi pa ako handa. And it's because of this one reason.

"I'm still scared of the people's judgement about you..." sabi ko sa maliit na tinig.

He cussed. He sighed because of annoyance.

"I don't give a fuck about their opinion on us... the only important for me is your opinion baby." He said seriously.

Nag-angat ako ng titig sa kanya. His jaw was clenching intensely and his hawk-like eyes was directed on me. His hard to expression was defined.

"What will be your friends say about you? I don't want to—..."

"If they are really my true friends, they will accept me of who I truly am... and addition... I'm only like this to you baby."

"But,—"

"Stop worrying about other people. We can't stop them from having opinion about us... What only matters here is us. Wala na silang magagawa kung piliin natin ang isa't-isa. We can face it together since it is inevitable."

Natutop ang bibig ko. Somehow, I get his point. 'Yon lang talaga ang rason na pumipigil sa akin na i-public ang meron man sa amin. Ayos lang sa akin kong makakatanggap ng mga opinyon tungkol sa akin pero kung tungkol sa kanya, I don't think I can bare it.

There was a silence between us for a moment. Hindi ko na alam ang sasabihin. I think he's right. In the end of the day, just like what I always thought, society can't dictate us and what matters here is us, only us.

"Baby..." he softly called. "What's your say? What are you thinking? Come on tell me..." he pleaded.

I sighed.