VLIVE | j.jk

t w e n t y - o n e

mia's laughter finally died down with a loud sigh.

"hey jeongguk?" she asked, the two of them still laying down on the bed.

"yeah?"

"i'm sorry for being...annoying. i didn't mean to yell at you in the car i was just really...hurt when you thought that you didn't deserve that kind of love and more hurt when you implied that because i'm a fan i can't see how you are so called "hurting' me."

jeongguk sighed. "but i am hurting you. you got hit by a sandal. your mom was praying to God so she wouldn't destroy you. and you just said your parents are going to kill you."

mia sheepishly smiled. "okay, that's a figure of speech and i said that for dramatic effect. it worked didn't it?"

"eh." jeongguk shrugged.

"okay fine. yes my parents can very well come close to killing me, but jeongguk, i'm serious, you're not getting in the way of anything! we both made a wish. and even though you had a feeling what might happen, none of us could have anticipated this!" mia exclaimed.

"yeah but—" jeongguk protested.

"no buts!" mia narrowed her eyes at him as he accepted defeat, her lips forming a non-threatening scowl.

jeongguk's gaze on her went a little longer than he had expected and he found themselves in a silent moment as he just looked at her and she scowled at him like a kitten trying to growl. he stopped himself from smiling not wanting her to think he wasn't thinking her seriously.

mia's heart did back flips as she looked at him look at her. she broke her gaze with a blink and looked away.

"i'm serious. and i'm also seriously hurt. do you really think my judgment is clouded? i admit I'm an army and love...bts, and yes i will admit that every single time you smile or do anything i find myself fangirling inside and i really tried to be secretive about that but if what you said about me being blinded by you to see the truth is because you felt...uncomfortable at all by me then i'm really sorry—"

jeongguk turned to his side and shook his head with pleading eye, "no no. i'm not at all uncomfortable by you, i promise. i just i don't see how i'm not hurting and i'm not saying that to be like a jerkish celebrity."

"trust me, you're not," mia said quietly.

"but how do you know?" jeongguk said at the same volume. he had been referring to the part of the argument where he had not believed that he truly deserved any love from his fans.

mia shook her head. she would not be doing her job as an army by letting him believe that. she wiped her tears with the back of her hand and looked straight up at him, "because you have done nothing but convince me and confirm the things i believed about you, that you are a real good person who cares. i was nervous at first that maybe you weren't really like what i saw behind the screen, but you are, jeongguk. and i know you aren't pretending because you are willing to argue with me despite the fact that i'm a fan. i know it said otherwise before, but i know that you are treating me as a person and know that i'm doing the same to you, or at least trying." the two lay there in silence taking in each other's words until mia had brought up another point. "the only thing that blinds me right now is my optimism or at least my sad attempt at trying to optimistic. i am so positive that everything will be okay because it always ends up being okay. i'm sorry for yelling at you and probably making you feel worse." mia broke her gaze as more tears began to form.

jeongguk's heart had been pounding so fast and loud he didn't know if she could hear it over his also loud thoughts. he had so much to say but the one thing he really wanted to do was apologize especially after seeing her cry. he did that.