Can't forget you [a Kyle O'Reilly story]

16 Reconnecting

I drove after Kyle in my car and thought the whole time about what had just happened. I couldn't really believe it yet, but I was glad I had the courage to take that step. When I first saw Kyle's face, the expression on it, I thought it had been a terrible mistake to listen to Adam and just surprise him.

Now that I thought about it, he was probably just shocked. After everything Adam had told me, Kyle thought he didn't deserve me and that he had lost me. Of course, he could have avoided all this if he had talked to me right away or at least answered the phone during the two months.

I could hardly imagine how much he had hurt himself with his behavior. I wasn't sure why, but somehow it felt good to know that he had suffered at least as much from the breakup as I had. It meant that we really loved each other and that we had something worth fighting for.

Finally I arrived at Kyle's house and parked my car in his driveway. Of course, he had gotten here much faster than I had. After all, he always drove so fast. Who knows, maybe he also wanted to clean up quickly.

Slowly I got out of the car and locked it. I took a moment to look around. It was already late in the evening and everything was quiet. This also gave me a certain peace. If I had survived the last few months, nothing could happen now that we couldn't manage.

I strode to the door and pressed the doorbell. Immediately I heard the barking of Molly and Hank. And I couldn't help but smile, because that's how much I had missed it. Not three seconds later, the door opened and I was instantly embraced by warm, strong arms. He just held me tightly. His head rested in the crook of my neck and I felt Kyle relax more and more with each breath. As if by magic, my arms found their way around his shoulders again.

We enjoyed the closeness that we both missed so much, until the dogs started to get impatient and scratched excitedly at our legs. Reluctantly, we detached ourselves from each other and looked down at the dogs.

"Okay, okay, you guys win. Why don't you go greet them and I'll get dinner ready. It won't be long now." said Kyle, smiling softly.

"Sounds good. Can I help you?" I asked, as usual.

"No. Just relax and cuddle with the fur balls. I'm going to make us Cacio e Pepe. It'll only take 10 minutes." he explained to me.

"Cacio what?" I asked, confused.

"Pasta with cheese and black pepper." Kyle explained to me and then gave me a kiss on the forehead before heading to the kitchen.

I knelt on the floor and immediately Molly and Hank surrounded me joyfully. It seemed as if the two had really missed me. It was so sweet because they had grown on me and I had missed them dearly too.

"Oh hello there little monsters. Oh you guys are even cuter than I remembered. Your daddy told me you guys were grumpy? Huh? Did you guys miss me?" I said playfully, giving them both my full attention until I heard Kyle clear his throat behind me.

I turned my head to look at him and there he stood with two plates in his hands while looking at me like he still couldn't believe I was real.

"Are you okay?" I asked quietly as I stood up.

"More than okay." he replied. Together we sat down on the couch and Kyle handed me one of the plates and cutlery.

My mouth watered from the aroma that hit me. Only now did I realize how hungry I actually was. I had not had such an appetite for a long time.

"Thank you, Kyle. It smells so good!" I praised.

"You're welcome. I hope you like it. I know how much you like pasta." Kyle replied.

As we ate, we began to talk about what was still standing between us. An invisible wall that had formed during the time we were apart.

We took turns explaining to each other how we had experienced the last few months and the feelings that were associated with it. It was not easy, but it helped to let everything out. The wall became noticeably smaller. And that was a good feeling. It strengthened my belief that we could really make it out of this, stronger and more connected.

That was something I would not have thought possible just a few days ago. But I had never been more glad to be wrong.

"Can I borrow a t-shirt from you, Kyle?" I asked when we finally decided to go to sleep some time later.

"Of course. Just grab one you like from the dresser." he replied and I could tell how exhausted he was. I knew exactly how he felt, my eyes were heavy and I couldn't wait to snuggle up to his warm, soft body once again.

A few minutes later we were in bed and Kyle promptly pulled me against his chest. His arms wrapped tightly around my waist. I was only too happy to lay my head on his chest and listen to the soothing beating of his heart.

"I love you, Y/N. And I'm so glad we talked about everything. Thank you for being with me again." Kyle whispered into my hair.

"I love you too, Kyle. I'm more than confident this will work out. But we always have to talk about everything. No running away and giving up, okay? Can you promise me that?" I whispered back as I lifted my head to look him in the face.

"Yes, I can. I got a taste of what it's like to live without you and I definitely don't want to experience that again. I'm so in love with you. I don't want to imagine my life without you." he replied softly, gently stroking my cheek.

My head nestled in his hand and I enjoyed the closeness I had missed so much.

"I can't even describe to you how much I missed you. It was like a part of me was missing and I'm glad to have it back with me. I love you so so much." I said and then leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to his waiting lips. With this kiss we promised each other to try harder from now on and that giving up was out of the question.

It was out of the question to risk losing the love of our lives again.

Finally, I laid my head back on Kyle's chest and deeply inhaled his scent. As we lay there so relaxed and wrapped together, it didn't take long for the much longed for and needed sleep to settle over both of us.

Dreams formed in my head of which I hoped that one day, perhaps in the near future would be fulfilled.