Illusions

7.

Rylan POV

Well I can't say that I didn't expect this. I haven't heard his voice in so long and honestly I missed it. " Hi, Giovanni" I said flatly. " Don't be like that, bella." Gio said. I sighed because I needed to have a mature conversation with him for the sake of Lily and also for my sake. " Gio, we need to talk." " First off I'm sorry for what I did to you. I betrayed you. I know that and it hurts me to know that I hurt you. I love you and I miss you and Lily. Where are you?" Gio sounded like he was speaking with raw emotion which warmed my heart.

" Well I mean we are in this predicament because of what you did to that women. I don't understand. Was I not good enough? Did I not satisfy you? Was I not sexy enough? How long had this been going on" Towards the end of my rant my voice had gotten louder and I was crying.

There was a pause " No Ry, You did satisfy me. The reason I stepped out had nothing to do with you. You were perfect. You are perfect. I love you so much. I don't know what was wrong with me. I was just fucked up in the head. That was the only time me and Coraline had ever had sex" Gio said. " I didn't know what to say.

I gathered myself together to ask the question I had wondered for a while now. " Is she the only one?" " What the fuck? Of course. Do you really think I would cheat on you twice? That was a one time thing. I didn't mean for it to happen it just did."

"Well I don't put it past you now. You cheated on me once. Who is to say you won't do it again?" I said , My anger getting the best of me. " Me! Fucking me? Your husband!" He said, I could tell he was frustrated. " Well my husband fucking cheated on me so I'm sorry I'm not as trustworthy as I used to be." I said, Loudly. I heard a smash. "What the actual fuck did you just do?" I said, Worry evident in my voice.

" Shit!" I heard Gio yell. " Are you drunk?" I asked knowing he only got reckless when he is drunk. " No shit." Gio said like I was just supposed to know that. " I know this not an excuse but I was going through alot and you weren't there" he said sounding genuinely sad. Hearing him say that made me angry. " We were both going through alot. You haven't been the same since Amelia." I said. " What do you expect? I lost a fucking child" He siad like I wasn't the one carrying her. " She was my child too! I had to fucking learn after that I woke up from the car accident and learn that the baby I was carrying who was less than a month from being in my arms had died!" I said sobbing at this point. " maybe if you were paying attention to the road she would be here with us!" Gio said, angrily. That made me pause. It had been 4 months since we lost her and I had still blamed myself. Maybe if I wasn't too busy talking on the phone I would have saw that car.

" Shit, I shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry Ry. I didn't mean that. I don't blame you. It was the heat of the moment." Gio said right after.

" yes you do. You meant to say that. And you know what Gio, Fuck you!" I said and then hung up the phone. He called five times after that and I turned my phone on do not disturb and tried to force myself to sleep.

Gio POV

I know I fucked up. I shouldn't have said that. I didn't mean a word. It wasn't her fault. I knew she was having a hard time with the loss Amelia too but that shit tore me up. I thought about her every day. After the doctors surgically removed her they let me see her. She was beautiful and in some ways I wish I hadn't saw but at the same time I'm glad I did but I see her little face more than I would care to. It was painful. I keep thinking about her being alive right now. She would have been about a month old. Thinking about Amelia made me think about Lily. I needed to see my princess. I don't care how fucked up things are with he mother,