Hormones

Gender

Yuuri and Namjoon haven't talked in a week. They only give each other silent glances every once in a while if they happen to see each other in the kitchen.

But Yuuri had been feeling oddly about herself. She felt like she was supposed to be different than she was now. Every time she saw Jen and Gina watching tv together and smiling, kissing, she felt like she wanted to be in a cute loving relationship like that.

Yuuri sat down in the couch next to Gina. "Gina? How did you know you where gay?"

Gina looked up from her book and eyed Yuuri. She shrugged. "I don't know. Just kinda felt right I guess. Why?"

Yuuri thought for a second. "I don't know. Just wondering."

"Are you questioning or something? Didn't you and Namjoon do something not to long ago?"

"Yes we did." Yuuri said not making eye contact. She felt weird saying that. It was like saying 'yep I fucked your son' without saying it.

Gina squinted her eyes. "Could you picture yourself doing that with a girl?" Yuuri blushed a bit. She couldn't believe she was having a conversation like this with Namjoon's mother. She tried to picture herself having sex with a woman.

"Yeah."

Gina nodded. "Well then. Think about that for a while. Maybe your gay. Maybe your bi."

Yuuri doesn't answer and walks back to her room. She got to her door when Namjoon is seen exiting his room. They both make eye contact before quickly breaking hit. They both freeze for a second. Yuuri grabbed onto her door handle and entered her room quickly shutting the door behind her. She walked a few steps into her room before she herd the door open. She turned around to be greeted by Namjoon. He wasn't looking at her just looking at the ground.

Namjoon finally looked up to Yuuri after a few minutes of silence. "Hey Yuuri." He said sadly.

"Hi Namjoon." Yuuri said back grabbing onto one of her arms.

Namjoon was silent again. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I tried to dictate what you do with your body." Namjoon suddenly said breaking down. He started crying and sobbing while Yuuri just stood there not really knowing what to do.

She hated to see Namjoon is such a sad state. It broke her heart. "Hey. It's ok." She said walking up to him. She cupped his face while he tried to look away from her. Namjoon sobbed loudly. He put his hands on Yuuri's shoulders and hugged her tightly.

They both hugged each other for a few minutes, not saying anything. Namjoon broke the hug after he had calmed down. He looked into Yuuri's eyes and leaned down kissing her. Except Yuuri didn't kiss back.

When he realized she didn't kiss back he pulled away. "What's wrong?" He asked worriedly. A bunch of thoughts when through his head. 'Does she not like me anymore?' 'Is she still upset?'. Now it was Yuuri's turn to cry. She didn't know what was wrong she just didn't feel it was right for her to kiss him back. She did like Namjoon she was just really confused with herself.

"I'm sorry Namjoon. I don't know what's wrong with me." She cried cried against him. Namjoons eyes widened and he sat her down on the bed. "There's nothing wrong with you Yuuri." He said rubbing his fingers through her long locks of dyed hair.

"Yes there is!" Yuuri nearly screamed. "I'm so confused with myself!"

"What are you confused about?" Namjoon asked still trying to calm her down but it wasn't working. She pushed his hands away from her. "Namjoon! When ever I see a pretty girl I imagine myself in a relationship with her! I shop in the boys section in the mall because the girls clothes don't feel right on me! I don't want to have the chance of getting pregnant again! I don't want to be a girl anymore! I want to be a boy!" Yuuri cried gripping her hair. She sobbed even louder and didn't care if his mothers heard her she just needed to get her feelings out there.