The Dangerous Princess: The Blue-Eyed Lady

Chapter 18

I woke up feeling dizzy the next day. Hindi ko man lang namalayan na nakatulugan ko ang pag-iyak. It was something I did the whole night, screaming for Ashton to take this mark back. And as I slowly got up from my bed, memories from last night's events immediately consumed my mind just as I started to feel the unusual feeling of warmth, pleasure, superiority, and power in me.

But I am very much aware that those feeling weren't mine. It was Ashton's.

Gusto ko na namang umiyak sa galit at frustration. Although the only connection I have with him is our stronger mate bond and mind link because I am not yet officially acknowledged as their Luna so I still can't communicate with the other pack members.

This is totally absurb!

This scar on my neck will never leave me now. It will be forever part of me the moment he bit me. I am already marked! And as much as I wanted to rejoice, I can't. All I can feel is guilt and fear. Guilt for myself because I failed to protect my family and fear for them because I know those dark witches will not be after me once they knew I am already bitten.

They will not be after me but my siblings.

Mahigpit kong naiyukom ang aking kamay. Fuck! Fuck you, Ashton.

And just like how I am feeling Ashton's power, he might be feeling the power I have been trying to hide right now. Anger rose in me.

Then feel my anger, too, asshole.

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Buong araw akong nagmukmok sa bahay. Gustuhin ko mang umuwi ay hindi ko magawa. Ano na lang ang sasabihin ko sa kanila? Na nanganganib buhay nila dahil tanga ako? Na markado na ako at baka ang mga kapatid ko na ang pupuntiryahin ng mga bruhang iyon kaya dapat mag-ingat na sila? At the young age, should I make my siblings feel unsafe because of my own selfishness?

Wala sa sarili akong pumikit. Alam kong gusto ko 'to. Gusto ko na minarkahan ako ni Ashton pero... pero hindi ko matanggap na ganito kaaga. Sa ganitong paraan at sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Galit ako sa kan'ya pero mas galit ako sa sarili ko. If I should've stopped pretending and for once opened up to him, make him understand about my nature and my situation, then maybe... maybe we can work this out together. Maybe this won't happen.

Pero wala na. Tapos na. Gaga ako. Naunahan ako ng takot na baka mawala sa akin ang pamilya ko. Nakalimutan kong Alpha si Ashton at hindi tumatanggap ng utos at hindi bilang tugon.

What now? What will happen next?

"Lun— Ashley?"

Lumingon ako sa pintuan nang may kumatok.

Luna...

I can't be a Luna. Their Luna.

"Ash?" taway ulit sa akin ni Mars mula sa kabila.

"Pasok."

"Hi," bati niya sa akin. "Pumasok na ako sa bahay mo, hindi ka sumasagot e," aniya sabay kamot sa batok.

"Bakit? Anong meron?" walang gana kong tanong sa kan'ya.

Nakita ko ang pasimpleng pagsilip niya sa leeg ko.

He sighed. "Ginawa pala talaga niya."

Hindi ako sumagot bagkus ay tinitigan lang siya.

"Ash, in behalf of Ashton, I'm sorr—"

"Cut it, Mars. I know he's not sorry."

"But I am."

"And you're not him. Hindi ikaw ang may gawa nito."