you don't understand you never will.

The more it burns the less it scars.

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-𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚒𝚝 𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚜
Lucy washed her makeup off and got changed into a hoodie and shorts whilst putting her hair in a messy bun. She got into bed but she couldn't sleep so she put on her shoes and headed to the roof top which over looked London beautifully she found herself up here when she first moved just watching over the city. She got out onto the roof and sat down with her knees tucked into her watching the empty city at night. She heard someone coming up and jolted her head round. There he was. Harry was walking towards her a little less intoxicated but there was still alcohol in his system.
"What you doing up here" he said to Lucy whilst sitting down next to her
"Couldn't sleep what about you"
"Thought I'd clear my head"
"Do you want me to go?"
"No no stay I don't mind"
"How are you feeling"
"Pretty shit to be honest"
"Do you want to tell me what happened or not it's up to you" said Lucy as much as she knew not to get involved she couldn't help it the poor guy was fragile using drinking as his coping mechanism.
The more it burns the less it scars.
"Well Milly my girlfriend or should I say ex now we've been together for 5 years and she's never trusted me knowing full well gee Sarah and Freya are all taken she always thought I'd cheat so she came to every single party or night out I went to even the lads only ones. The one party she didn't come to because she had another one back home she still didn't trust me messaging me all night. But I always trusted her and look where that's got me Daniel a mate from guernsey who was at the party sent me a video of her necking it off with another lad"
"You poor guy" said Lucy feeling shocked with how much Milly had hurt this boy. He leaned in and put his head on her shoulder and a tear dropped down his face.
"Anyways enough about me what's going on with you?"
Lucy had secrets. Simon didn't know half of it everyone assumed she was okay 24/7 but she was far from if. Nobody asked about her and anytime she went to explain her feelings the other person would stop her and talk about themselves. She found it easier to keep herself to herself that way nobody could hurt her because she never let them in in the first place. She wasn't the type to cry over anyone she taught herself to not get upset over little things. If you made her cry you well and truly hurt her.
"Nothing all's good" she said knowing full well she was lying she wasn't used to people asking about her except Simon every now and then.
"So what's with the move to London"
"Career, money just better I guess"
"Fair enough what about you ever been in love?"
Love.the feeling of delight whenever your with someone who makes you smile.
"No- no never."
Lucy had been in love in fact this is what had broken her. Since she was heart broken she never trusted anyone she blocked everyone out kept her heart closed nobody could hurt her. She liked it that way.
"I'm sorry I'm being nosey"
"Don't worry about it I get it" Lucy went to adjust her hand when she felt something on the floor in between Harry and herself. She picked it up to see it was a fresh rolled joint.
"Yours?"
"Shit sorry you probably think I'm a druggie now"
"Just the occasional smoke when nobody knows clear your head?" Questioned Lucy she couldn't exactly judge Harry when she had done it a few times herself in fact it increased once her heart broke. She knew exactly how he felt.
"Yeah how'd you know?"
"I'm not exactly a saint myself"
Harry smiled and looked at her
"Go on light it I could do with a few puffs"
Harry began and lit the spliff and they passed it between each other still enjoying the view. Lucy began shaking after all she was in a childish hoodie and shorts wether as Harry was in a coat hoodie and joggers.
"Cold?"
"A little"
"Here you go" Harry took off his coat and placed it around her
"Childish hoodie" said Lucy pointing to his jumper
"There comfy okay"
"Agreed" said Lucy pointing down to the exact replica he was wearing.

"Right i better get back to sleep" said Lucy taking off the coat and giving it back to Harry as she stood up.
"Thanks Lucy"
"For?"
"Just sitting and listening it means a lot"
"Don't worry about it if you need me just message me this was fun"
"I liked it too"
"Just promise me one thing"
"Go on"
"Don't smoke again well unless I'm there"
"Agreed" the two began walking back and into the separate flats.