you don't understand you never will.

what do i do

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- what do I do
Lucy said nothing but just sat on her bed in shock
She'd never seen Harry as the type to fuck and Chuck
No she certainly didn't regret it their was some sort of sexual tension that lingered between them but it felt reciprocated.
She just sat their in shock while Harry was speedily walking down the road to his flat wondering how he was gonna tell her.

It had been a week since the hook up had they spoke.
Nope not once the group hadn't been together in a while as everyone was busy but Harry and Lucy never spoke once. This obviously hurt Lucy he was her best friend she'd gone from seeing him non stop to not at all.

Lucy knew she was going to see Harry but it wasn't her who had the problem it was him she'd never done anything he fucked her and left and it did hurt Lucy but she was a master at blocking her emotions.
She got ready bought a few Stella's and made her way over to freezy. She was a bit late but she liked it that way.
"Yoo Luc how are you" answered freezy pulling her into a hug
"I'm good" she smiled back as she entered the apartment to see everyone scattered around the apartment. She first looked for Harry but she didn't see him at first she was kind of hoping he'd be in guernsey but she knew that wasn't the case. She opened a Stella and made her way to a gap next to Talia.
"Hey bitch you okay" she smiled at her
"Yeah I'm fine" laughed Lucy. The match still hadn't begun yet and everyone was placing bets and drinking she still hadn't seen Harry was strange but she thought nothing of it. She got up to get her self another drink when she bumped into Harry and a girl.
"Oh my gosh we've not met yet I'm Sasha it's so nice to meet you" she smiled as she pulled Lucy into a hug she seemed like such a nice girl brown short hair and a beautiful smile. Harry stood behind her awkward he didn't say a word to her.
"I'm Lucy it's nice to meet you" she smiled back
"Lucy I've heard so much about you" she smiled
"Oh gosh which stories" she laughed
"Don't worry all fun dinho here doesn't shut up" she laughed
"Ahh I see are you two?" She questioned
"Mhm!"
"Im so sorry I didn't know that's great dinho you've got a good one here" laughed Lucy looking up at Harry who was shocked she's said his name.
"Im just gonna get a drink I'll talk to you later sash" she smiled to which Sasha agreed and she walked into the kitchen grabbing another drink before joining the group once again.
The night was going well Sasha was getting along well with the group and Lucy was happy for her it was starting to make sense. The match was going great. Lucy got up to go to the toilet going to the main one.She knocked on the door noticing it was locked
"Fuck off im having a shit" groaned Ethan from the inside
"Jesus Ethan hurry up!" She laughed
"You can um just go to mine" muttered a voice from behind her she turned around to see Harry.
"Oh um yeah thankyou" she said as she walked into his room

"Luc i am sorry yeah" he said following behind her
"About what" she asked turning around
"That night I shouldn't have left without a word" he sighed sitting down on the bed
"It's fine but you should've explained why I would've understood it was all a-bit weird since you were the one who kissed me" she said
"I know I know I am sorry me and Sasha were kind of a thing I shouldn't have walked out like that"
"Listen I genuinely do not care just tell me one thing you like her don't you"
"Yeah of course"
"Alright I'm happy for you don't be a twat" she smiled before going into the bathroom and locking the door.

It felt like a punch to the gut.

Lucy started crying. She didn't know why she was honestly happy for him but for some reason she wanted to be her. She looked at herself in the mirror wiping her tears away and going back out to the group to act like it was all okay.

Harry's POV:
Fuck fuck fuck.
I muttered as I walked out of Lucy's. Nobody knows but I've been talking to a girl named Sasha we'd been out a few times and we kind of had something. And I've fucked it up by shagging Lucy. I got home stressed out I didn't know what to do I'd kissed Lucy a fare few times and I can't lie she's stunning but I don't think she feels the same. Sasha is stunning so nice and sweet and I think she does like me back.

I made the decision and me and Sasha now go out I've not spoken to Lucy I felt bad in a way to sash but I needed to I just couldn't do it. Everyone was coming over to ours for the match it was gonna be the first time I was fetching Sasha to meet everyone and I knew they would like her but I was scared about Lucy. We've not spoken at all I don't want it to be awkward but I'm not sure.

Everyone was in the flat and me and sash were in my room as she was doing her makeup. We eventually decided to go out and talk to everyone. Sash was getting along well with everyone until we bumped into Lucy.
I didn't look at her nor smile until I heard her say something about me
"Dinho you've got a good one" she laughed looking up at me as we made contact. I needed to speak to her.
"She seems nice" smiled Sasha as we walked away.
"Yeah" I said taking a sip from my peroni

I needed to talk to Lucy it wasn't fair on her. I saw her going up to go to the toilet and I followed behind.
"Um just go in mine" I said as we went into my bedroom.

"Luc i am sorry yeah" I said I was really sorry
"About what" she asked turning around
"That night I shouldn't have left without a word" I said I've been wanting to tell her for ages
"It's fine but you should've explained why I would've understood it was all abit weird since you were the one who kissed me" she said
"I know I know I am sorry me and Sasha were kind of a thing I shouldn't have walked out like that"
"Listen I genuinely do not care just tell me one thing you like her don't you"
"Yeah of course"
"Alright I'm happy for you don't be a twat" she smiled before going into the bathroom and locking the door.
Something was off.
I knew Lucy and I knew her well I don't know if somethings happened but she's not okay right now. I waited in my room for a second until a heard a sniffle from inside. She was crying but why though me and her were never anything. Fuck what do I do now.
I heard the rap star running and I went back and joined the group contemplating What to do.

OMG GUYS OFFICIALLY 20 MINS TILL MY BIRTHDAY IVE ASKED FOR AN IMAC SO IF I GET IT CHAPTERS WILL BE ON SPEEEEEED