you don't understand you never will.

𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚒 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗'𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚎

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- 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚒 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗'𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚎
Lucy's POV:
Their I sat at my dressing table applying a thick eyelash my makeup scattered around me. I felt content. I applied abit more makeup than usual to cover the eye bags from not sleeping.
"You know we honestly don't have to go if your not up to it" he smiled coming up from behind me and hugging me. He's been such a help these past few days.
"No it's okay I want to go" I smiled looking up to him
"Okay but I'll be next to you and if you feel overwhelmed just tell me and we can go" he said smiling
"You have no idea how thankful I am for you" I smiled back standing up and placing a light kiss on his cheek before picking out my outfit. I picked a black backless long sleeved top and a black skirt with some gold jewellery. I felt confident for the first time in a long time.
"You look stunning Luc" smiled Harry at the door.
"Thankyou you are the sweetest when you can be arsed" I joked
"Soppy twat aren't I"
"Yes yes you are" I laughed
"Come on they'll be waiting" he said holding out his hand as we made our way to the restaurant.

We finally arrived and my heart was beating at what felt like 100 miles an hour. I'd ghosted eveyone and gave them no explanation. Somehow Harry had noticed and grabbed my hand before looking at me and reassuring me. We stepped out of the taxi to see everyone stood outside.
"Ayo harry you good man" said jj as I hid behind him
"It's alright don't sorry" whispered Harry who's hand I was still holding
Jj finally noticed me and pulled me in a hug
"Luc mahn omg ive missed you how are you!!" He said his loud voice i missed I can't lie and I hugged him back
"I've missed you too jj" I said back pulling away until the rest of the group began noticing I was their and they all came up to me asking what happened. Freezy and Harry were next to me freezy having one arm around and Harry still being next to me
"We've missed you Luc" said freezy
"Well I'm back now" I smiled
"Nah nah never do that again" he said laughing
"Fucking hurry up I want food" said Harry groaning next us
"You want food I'm freezing my non existent tits off" I joked at Harry who then gave me his jacket although over sized it went well with my outfit.

We finally made our way into the restaurant I sat between Harry and tobi Harry not leaving my side.
"You okay?" He asked as we all looked at the menus
"Mhm what you getting?" I asked him looking up at him
"I've got no clue too fancy" he laughed "what about you?"
"Ermmm might go for the steak glad to have some proper food down me ur shit cooking was killing me" I joked causing Harry to make a funny look and waving his hands about
"Nah nah what do you mean don't even sit here and say my pasta and beans isn't amazing"
I said nothing but just smiled
"Exactly!!"

"you seen them two?" Whispered josh to Freya and Ethan
"I know they'd be so good together" said Freya groaning still looking at the drinks
"Bogs done well I'm quite proud I'm gonna fetch my mrs next time" he smiled when jj then joined into the convo
"Ayo why am I jealous of harry and lucy man they look so happy" he laughed
"Hush jj" said Freya
"What I'm not being loud" he argued
"Yes yes You are shutup" said ethan laughing

Lucy's POV:
The food was great I had a strawberry daiquiri first time I'd drank in a long time I enjoyed it. The evening was spent laughing and messing something I'd hugely missed and I'm glad I came out today. Luckily their were little to no questions asked about where I'd been they respected me.

"Can I bring my girlfriend next time she actually wants to meet you all" said an excited ethan. We knew about his girlfriend for a while he was just waiting on a good time to fetch her in which we all agreed yes to meeting her.
"Oh Lucy how's Owen" asked vik. The question I was dreading I knew he didn't do it out of spite he was just curious I'd asked about Elle earlier on anyways. It's not his fault he didn't know. My heart began racing a bit until I felt Harry hand on my thigh
"I uh we've broken up" I said through a tightlipped smile
"Oh I'm sorry Luc" said Vik apologetic bless him he didn't mean harm
"No no it's fine you were all going to find out soon enough" I said
"Thank god you got rid of him was a right cunt" said Ethan drinking his beer
"Agreed" I laughed back.

We then entered a conversation about jj somehow thinking he could knock out a horse. I laughed along it was quite funny.
"Nah nah I'd just bam" he laughed
"I'm just gonna the toilet" I whispered to Harry next to me who gave a swift nod.
I started walking to the toilets until I felt a hand on my shoulder and Talia had come with me
"Hey how are you feeling?" She asked as we entered the toilets looking into the mirrors in front of us
"I'm good glad I came out I feel a lot better" I smiled it was true I did
"Good are you gonna tell them or not?" She asked
"Well I'm not to sure to be honest"
"Understandable your decision babe" she said and we made our way back to the table

Lucy began walking away and talia caught up to her. Ethan immediately leaned in to the table
"Haroldinho what's going on with you and Luc?" He said smiling and the whole group had tuned into the conversation
"Nah lad what do you mean" I laughed back unsure of what he meant
"You know what we mean you've been so close with Lucy recently mate" said josh I looked around the table to see everyone nodding
"Nah we're best mates that's it" I said I could understand what they mean but they don't know what she's been through.
"Mate you think I didn't notice you holding her hand when you first came" said jj laughing
"She was nervous mate Jesus don't need to make everything weird" I joked
"Boggo left me with herb for days while he stopped over at hers everyday" said freezy receiving a few go on lad from the group
"Ahhh mate you've been caught out" said tobi laughing
"Nah nah I wasn't at Lucy's" I said trying to sidetrack the convo
"Nah he was every time I came round" said soon
"Si mate thought you'd back me nothings going on between us were just friends"I laughed
"Friends my arse and Owens out of the picture the twat go for it bog" said ethan
"Never thought I'd agree with Ethan but I do" said Freya

Me and talia returned to the group and sat back down.
"Right jj what news did you drag us all out for?" Asked chip
"Oh shit yeah well it's going to come out soon enough but it's pretty big" he said
"Is it cool?" Asked Sarah
"Erm yeah do you know how I've had beef with the Paul's and shif"
"Yeah" replied most of the group
"Well uh me and Logan paul are having a boxing match" he announced. I was shocked proud of him though
"No way when!" I said I did like boxing I was just shocked how two you tubers were doing it
"August next year I know it's ages away but it's training and press conferences it's going to be mad" he said very gassed up
"So is it gonna be like proper?" Asked freezy
"Hopefully the staples Center in Las Vegas gonna sell paperview and shit" he said
"No way!" Shouted Freya
"Wow well done mate"
"That's fucking sick"
The group began congratulating him we were all so proud of him.

The night continued until it began getting late and everyone made their way home. Lucy insisting Harry go home for the night but he refused and stopped over at hers once again

I finished taking my makeup off then got into bed next to Harry who was scrolling through Instagram
"How was it?" He asked me
"Glad I went" I smiled
"Does this mean my drinking partner is back?" He questioned
"Ethan?" I asked
"No you you twat" he laughed
Before the two went on fifa.

CLARIFICATION
-ONLY DOING ONE LOGAN VS KSI
-BASED ON THE SECOND MATCH
-WONT BE CRINGY WITH PAUL BROTHERS
-ONLY DOING IT COS I WANNA USE A CERTAIN PHOTO