you don't understand you never will.

𝚒𝚖 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎

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- 𝚒𝚖 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎
Today was the day I was going back to normal. I thought to myself last night if I want to make myself feel better I can work for it. So I woke up with motivation and got in the shower before ordering myself a star bucks as I finished editing a video that was pre filmed. Harry finally woke up and headed out to the sidemen house to film.

I finally posted a video and tweeted that it was out. I then began writing my email to leave the company

Dear Amanda
I am forever thankful for the opportunities that were given from your company however i am going to have to leave your company due to personal reasons I will not be explaining. I hope you know it is not your fault however it is one of your staff members.

I sent that off to the company and I felt a wave of relief wash over me. He'd gone thats it I didn't have to abide by him any longer. I was so happy with myself that I'd done that and I'm one step further  getting back to normal. After answering a few emails and taking a few brand deals I decided to chill out and I jumped onto my couch putting on glee and singing along with songs. I was in a comfy hoodie and joggers with my glasses on to be honest i was living life.
"IT DONT MATTER IF YOUR BLACK OR WHITE!" I sang into the remote I always liked Micheal Jackson. Then I started to get abit bored so I FaceTimed noah.
"Yo luc what's good" he said holding up his camera I could hear the grime music in the back
"Er what's happened to you your not a roadman" I said back until I heard giggling in the back ground
"Oi and Noah got a girl round hiyaaaa I'm his older sister!" I said abit louder in hopes of embarrassing him
"Ah Lucy mahn not gonna happen" he siad
"Better introduce me" I said laughing
"Yeah come on then" he said waving and suddenly Louise came in shot
"Louise wait hold on are you two?" I said in amazement until I received a nod from Louise
"ahhhhh oh my god I'm adding Simon"
I then added Simon to the call
"Yo what's up" he said I could tell he was still in bed
"Oi look them two are going out" I said to him
"Ayo when we're you gonna tell us then" he said shocked
"And when were you gonna tell us about your girlfriend Simon" replied Louise laughing
"If your that bothered she right here" he laughed turning the camera to talia
"Hii!" Talia said
"Talia that's Louise my sister and Noah luc brother"
"It's nice talking to you!" She said
"I like her Simon don't be a twat!" Said Louise
"Nah nah Noah hurt her and ill actually kill you" he said
"Don't worry I'll kill him anorl" I said
"Ayo what fam anyways when are you both coming?" Asked Noah
"Not while your speaking like that your from Leeds not Peckham" I laughed back
"Are you bringing talia?" Asked Louise
"Might do yeah" he replied
"Luc you fetching Harry then?" Asked Noah
"Well we don't go out so no" I laughed back
"Yeah yeah" said Noah
"Carry on I'll tell Louise everything" I said
"Ah say nothing"
"Right I'm going byee!" Said Simon after he left call
"When can we come?" Asked Louise
"Yeah yeah I wanna meet the harry " said Noah
"Well I don't know you'll have to stay with me though"
"Yeah yeah that's calm"
"Actually fuck this Louise you can come he's not coming roadman wannabe"
"Ayo what"
"I'm going bye guys!" I waved and ended the call. I then moved to my bed for a nap not because I was tired just bored as fuckkkk.
Until Harry woke me up.

"What" I said
"Hello i... think you should come to the sidemen house right now" he smiled
"And why?" I asked laughing
"Because Right all there girlfriends are round and we're gonna top golf and I think I'm going to kill myself" he moaned putting his phone up to stand
"And that's a good enough reason because..." I laughed
"No I actually beg you come"
"Alright I'll be half an hour" I smile
"Thank god stay on call though"

I got quickly ready and made my way over to the sidemen house. Knocking on the big double doors until jj answered.
"Yoo Luc how you doing"
"I'm alright jj what about you?"
"Nah nah I'm good got to go I've got a girl round" he said whilst rubbing his hands together
"She's here for me jj not you ha" said Harry walking into the kitchen
"Wouldn't want to take your lass" he laughed while walking
"Fucks sake" Harry laughed back and we made our way to the spare room.

"I need to visit home" I groaned sat next to Harry
"Me too josh is practically begging me" he laughed
"Josh your brother?" I asked I didn't really know much about his family
"Yeah he's 15 and I've got a sister Rosie but she's at uni in Manchester"
"Ahhh got you"
"You got any siblings?"
"Only noah who I found out today goes out with si's sister"
"Oh shit"
"I mean he's happy he's fucking begging to meet you" I laughed
"You been talking about me eh" he winked nudging his shoulder
"Nooo he watches your YouTube videos or whatever they are" I laughed
"What what do you mean my videos are elite"
"Debatable when are you going then?" I asked
"I know I'm going for Christmas but I might go earlier and fetch josh back with me since he wants to see london" he smiled
"Same thing with Noah" I smiled
"Nah I wanna meet him sounds like a sound fella"
"You wish hes a twat I'd get along with Rosie though" I smiled at him as he nodded
"Agreed can't be arsed with top golf I kind of want a night out"
"Me too I do fancy getting bladdered"
"I also want a holiday but they won't"
"Same I might just run away"
"Don't leave me with these old people"
I laughed back as he layed next to me as we waited for eveyone to be ready.

"Fucking idiot" Harry laughed Reading the group. Until the door flew open
"I knew they were pis-" started Freya before realising I was their waving at her
"She's not he-" said talia coming in after her.
"Hi guys" I smiled still waving
"She is here I think" said Harry before he started tickling me
"Oi fuck off" I screamed.

We were all sat on the sofa talking whilst eating through our dominos. I liked these type of days that were just chill.
"Right I say we do New Years here then" said jj
"May aswell it's the biggest house" replied Harry
I walked to the kitchen for a drink to find Simon already there.
"When are we going to leeds?" He asked me
"I don't know I might go before Halloween and fetch noah back" I said pulling out a coke from the drive
"Do you wanna go back up together?" I asked him
"I will for Christmas but I think I wanna go in November" he said
"Right so I'll go mid October then and fetch noah for a while" I said
"Fetch louise with you she wants to come aswell" he said
"Fine I'll do that then and we go together on Christmas"
"Yeah" he smiled back until we made our way into the living room.