you don't understand you never will.

I get high when im upset...

This song goes well with this chapter so listen while reading if you want :)

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-  𝚒 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚑𝚒𝚐𝚑 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚒'𝚖 𝚞𝚙𝚜𝚎𝚝
There Lucy was spliff in one hand vodka in the other switching between both,legs dangling over the building something she'd never done before but she was not in the right state of mind to move away. The joint made her feel like she was floating, it relaxed her and the burning sensation of the vodka trickled down her throat then the harsh smoke of the weed being inhaled.

Lucy's POV:
There I was once again drinking and smoking away my problems . You know what's funny I was actually getting better i stopped with this bullshit I didn't drink as heavy I stopped smoking for fucks sake I even helped Harry but once again I've fucked it alllll up. Harry's a cunt I wish I never trusted him he clearly cares so much about me didn't even get me a fucking present shows how much he thinks of me. I grabbed my phone and started playing life's a mess by juice wrld.

Sometimes life's a mess I get high when I'm upset

And here I am sat on the roof crying puffing in this fucking spliff and drinking vodka what a point in my life. Overlooking the streets of London watching cars go by it was relaxing. I was zoned out for a while and I heard the door open behind me startled I turned around and Harry was there.

Harry's POV:
I went on the roof and opened the door to smell weed I looked out and there she was Lucy sat on the very edge looking at me the street lights lighting her face up and all I could see was black mascara dragged down her cheeks still running. She turned back and I started walking towards her no matter if I was mad at her she was clearly in a bad state
"Well well well here you fucking come finally decided to talk to me then or are you gonna ignore me like you've done all night huh" she slurred she was hammered and stunk of weed and alcohol I'd never seen her like this.
"Luc come on move away from the edge" I said walking towards her holding my hand out. She wacked my hand away
"No Harry don't fucking pretend like you care now you've not cared all night" she said turning back bringing the bottle to her lips once again
"Luc of course I care I always have please just move away so we can talk it out" I said offering her my hand again
"Oh just fuck off like you did earlier" she said turning away from me
"Come on Lucy your not okay just move away from the edge you know I didn't want to leave earlier I'm sorry okay" I said just trying to make her move from the edge she was drunk and high and I didn't want anything to happen to her
"But you did so why"
"Listen I'll explain once you move away" I said all I wanted was for her to move away,she grabbed my hand and I stood her up once we moved away from the edge she let go of my hand "I can walk" she huffed and stumbled to our spot sitting down where I sat next to her
"So why'd you leave then Could've at least said goodbye"
"Don't know"
"Could've come up with a better excuse" she huffed. But it was the truth I couldn't handle watching her with him I couldn't stand the thought of him touching her being all over her not knowing what she likes. I don't know why I feel like this I can't lie.
"When we're you gonna tell me you got a boyfriend then" I said I couldn't help it
"It's complicated" she muttered
"Nah nah I don't think it is luc considering I tell you eveything and you couldn't tell me you had a boyfriend"
"Harry fucking leave it out don't start now your the one being off all night!" She shouted
"I'm being the one off because I fucking thought you were my best friend and something is going on that you won't tell me" I huffed I didn't want an argument
"Nothings going in" she muttered bringing the bottle again to her lips
"Nothings going on okay so tell me why you won't speak to me without fiddling with your mums ring which you do when somethings up also tell me why suddenly you've got a boyfriend that non of us knew about which also seems to have the same name as the rude guy that messaged you on holiday and now that your on the fucking roof smoking drinking and crying when your the one that helped me when it was the same" I looked at her after getting everything out and she began crying again
"Listen I don't want to see you upset I just wanna see you happy but you keep blocking me out" I said wrapping my arm around her shoulder in which she began to cry into my shoulder. Why was I being so protective of her I'm not her boyfriend he should be the one up here talking to her.

Normal POV:
And at that moment in time lucy contemplated telling him everything from the night in the club to the day he stormed into her house to the fake relationship but she couldn't . Instead she just weeped into his shoulder.
"Every time I let someone in they leave and don't give a shit Harry your the first person in a long time I've cried to and then you acting like you didn't care today it hurt like a bitch because I genuinely thought you cared
"I do care I was just frustrated" he reassured her
"But it fucking hurt I thought you were here to stay" she cried
Harry didn't speak instead he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box and handed it to her
"What's this" she said fiddling with it
"Just open it" he said
She opened the box reluctantly to find a silver ring with a heart engraved on it
"Since you've got that one ring that your ex gave you that you wanted to replace so it didn't remind you of him I got you one so you finally can get rid of him and have me because that's how much I care" he smiled. It was the most thoughtful gift ever and Lucy sat their shocked someone had remembered so much as she took her ex's ring off and put Harry's on it fit like a glove
"I don't know what to say Thankyou so much I love it" she said tearing up once more
"Lucy I'm here to stay I'm not going anywhere any time soon okay" he smiled at her and she pulled him into a hug
"Ready to go back in?" He said as the cold London air was getting to him now
"Mhm" she muttered wiping her eyes as he held her up she was still very very drunk stumbling so he held her up and took her back to her apartment. Simon had gone over to talias so he took the key from Lucy and opened the door and took her to her bedroom he passed her a hoodie and she got changed as he picked her makeup wipes from her bathroom which he knew she used from the holiday. Gently wiping her face down he tucked her into bed
"I'm going luc goodnight" he smiled at the door
"No stay please
"Are you sure" he asked
"Mhm" he got a pillow and a blanket and went to sleep on the floor and when she questioned him to why he was
"Just thought your boyfriend wouldn't like it" he smiled he didn't like that owen was slowly pulling them apart
"Please" she smiled and he got into bed with her and she nuzzled her head into his chest and they both fell asleep.

This is my favorite chapter I've written so farrrrr