Through the Screen

24. A Lot of Crying

Luke and I got to the guys' house and he carried me inside and up to his room.  He set me down on his bed and went to one of his drawers and pulled out a pair of his sweatpants and then went to his closet and grabbed his Blink shirt and handed them to me.  "When you change come downstairs and we can order some pizza."  Luke said and kissed my forehead then left the room, closing the door behind him.  I got up and shed my clothes and replaced them with Luke's.  The sweatpants were way too long so I had to roll them a few times and his shirt was more like a dress on me.  They were the most comfy clothes I've ever worn though.  Guys are lucky, us girls have to deal with dresses and skirts.  I went to the bathroom down the hall first and used Luke's brush to tame my hair and I pulled it up into a messy bun.

I went down the stairs and saw Luke leaning up against the counter in the kitchen with his eyes focused on the small screen of his phone.  Walking over to him, and him still not noticing me, I went up and stood right next to him and bumped him with my hip.  He jumped a little but then noticed that it was just me.  "You know, you should really borrow my clothes more often.  You look so cute right now."  Luke said as his eyes went from my feet and came up to meet my gaze.  

"I think this shirt would look good as a dress with some leggings."  I said and I did a little twirl to show how much room I had in the shirt as it puffed out around me.  Luke just laughed at me and I poked his cheek which made him laugh harder which made me giggle in response.  I grabbed his hand and he twirled me around one more time before pulling me into his chest.  "You smell really good."  I said to him after I pulled away from him and he just looked at me funny.

"Well, I mean I wear cologne so I should smell pretty good."  Luke laughed and came and picked me up bridal style and carried me into the living room and threw me onto some blankets he had put on the couch.  "Oh, I also ordered the pizza.  Pepperoni and cheese."  He said as he plopped down next to me and grabbed the remote for the TV and started looking through the channels.  He clicked on How I Met Your Mother, a Luke Hemmings favorite.  He wrapped his arms around my torso and pulled me closer into his side.  

"I'm sorry with Ashton and everything.  I had no idea what was going on and he freaked me out and I'm sorry about you seeing me like that."  I said after a long time of silence with the show playing in the background.  Luke looked worriedly at me and asked me why I was sorry.  "I don't know I just, I don't know.  I wouldn't have forgiven myself if I had let Ashton kiss me and I don't want to tear apart your band and make you guys all mad at each other or something."  I said as I  covered my face with my hands so that Luke didn't see my crying for the second time that night.  Luke didn't say anything.  I don't think he could.  I definitely didn't want to be the one to make the band all hate each other.  "I'm just going to go home before they get home.  Try and talk to Ash for me, okay?"  I asked Luke and I could tell he was going to try and protest but I just shook my head and gave him a quick kiss.  I only lived five minutes away and I could walk.  I grabbed my phone from the kitchen where I had left it and I called a last goodbye to Luke.

I left the house with tears streaming down my face and blurring my vision.  I don't know why I had thought that Luke and I were going to work.  All we were meant to be friends, right?  We had been for three years.  We could be friends for longer than that.  I'm not going to be the person that comes in between their band like in fanfics on Wattpad.  Trust me, I've read quite a few and real life doesn't end like those do.  It's not just some magic that makes the couple be able to be together.  

It just doesn't end like that.

I'M SO SORRY I FEEL LIKE SATAN RIGHT NOW OMG DONT WORRY IM GOING TO UPDATE AGAIN