The Maze Runner Imagines (requests closed)

You Starve Yourself // Newt

⚠️CAUTION: Trigger warning, please don't read if you're easily triggered by any of this stuff..and if you ever feel this way please feel free to message me. I'm here for you and I care.❤️
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This is a preference, so there will be one for all the main boys. & just to let you all know I teared up while making these so beware you were warned!😁
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You clenched your stomach with your hand as it growled for the hundredth time. You were sitting next to Newt and he was munching down on his lunch; a sandwich and a few cookies.

Frypan barely served cookies, and it was so hard to resist. "Are you sure you aren't hungry love?" Newt asked, staring down at the hand on your stomach. "Yeah..I'm sure." You mutter, trying to hide the pain you've been going through. You weren't sure if you were relieved that nobody noticed, or disappointed.
You've been starving yourself for the last two weeks, and you haven't noticed a slight change in your weight at all. You sat quietly next to Newt, smiling; but deep down, you were drowning in thoughts.
They ran through your mind, corrupting and piercing every good thought that had ever made its way towards your mind. Everything that made you happy to be alive, was now non-existent; even though Newt was sitting right next to you. You closed your eyes as you felt every good thought turn into something negative, you couldn't help it.

You didn't feel Newt studying you. You were trying so hard to not to break down, but you felt it, warm and slivering its way down your cheek; a single tear. You wiped it away immediately, hoping Newt didn't notice. Your eyes darted open to see Newt studying you, wide eyed and concerned.

--"Are you okay?"
"Uh, yeah. Just allergies, I think." You answered quickly.
--"Allergies?"
"Yeah well, I gotta go do something so yeah bye."
"Y/N!" Newt yelled, but you quickly got up and ran off, you couldn't keep it in any longer.

"Psh, girls man." Frypan chuckled. "Always so complicated and emotional."
"N-no, there's something wrong." Newt said, leaving his last cookie and running off to find you.

You were in your room, since you and Teresa were the only girls, you had the opportunity to share a room. You heard a knock on the door, but you didn't say anything; hoping he'd think you were somewhere else and leave.
--"Y/N, I bloody know you're in there, and I know there's something wrong. I can tell, I know you."
"Newt can you please just leave me alone."
--"Please Y/N, please. Let me in."
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"It's unlocked."
You muttered, sitting on your bed trying to wipe your tears away.

You feel Newt join you on the bed. "I knew there was something wrong, you've been off the last two weeks."

He noticed.

"Newt, I don't want to talk about it."
"But I want to help."
"You can't! Please just leave me alone!"
"Y/N I can't just shucking leave you alone! I bloody care about you and it's never good to be alone; especially when you're really upset."
Newt stroked your hair, then laid on your bed, patting the sheets next to him so that you would join him. You buried your face in his chest, but kept your hands on your face. You didn't like people seeing you cry, you were always known as that strong girl.. He kissed your forehead.
"Now speak to me." He begged.
You looked up at his brown, watery eyes. "Newt I want to be skinny. I want to be as skinnier than everyone here. I've been starving myself for the past two weeks and I'm still not good enough-" Newt bolted up. His hands met his hair and tears raced down his eyes.
"Newt please don't worry-"
"Y/N!" Newt cried. "P-please don't destroy yourself like that!" Tears ran down your boyfriend's cheeks. "You need to eat something. I can't have you disappear. You're beautiful just the way you are please..trust me. Don't trust that dusty piece of bloody glass. You're bloody perfect just the way you are and you're not even close to fat. Please Y/N. Please. Eat, please just do it for me."
"But Newt I-"
"If you destroy yourself, you're also destroying me."
Newt's words pierced your heart.
You tightly hugged him and cried into his shoulders.

"I won't do it anymore, I promise. For you."
His grip tightened as the whispered the words thank you. He kissed your lips, not wanting to let you go.

--"Let's get you something to eat."
"I rather just kiss you." You breathed.
"Later." He said, planting one last kiss on your lips, he grabbed your hand and pulled you back to the lunch area.

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What did you guys think? This is my first preference imagine thing. Sorry it's taking so long to do your requests I'm working on them I promise!❤️ I might post another one tonight or tomorrow morning we'll see. Anywayyy I hope you all have a great night/morning!😘