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May 13th, 2021, around 3.30pm

Yeah uh

I really feel like throwing up rn

Not only because I'm sick

I wanna leave so bad rn

But I cant

My brother is being an complete asshole again, like always

He bodyshamed me, made racist jokes, swored at me, made my siblings cry for an hour, made my mum yell at all of us, made us wait almost an hour for lunch bcs he said he was gonna go buy bread but he took fucking long, he hit me a few times and almost ripped out some hair again

Funfact: my dad is not even home

I have a headache the whole day, and they all just won't shut up

I dont even think they even remember that I'm sick

I wanna get out of here rn

I have no place to be alone

I'm literally about to break down I cant-

But I cant even go anywhere

Everything's closed today

And I really don't wanna infect or even bother any of my friends rn

I cant go out because my mum won't let me because Its raining and its pretty cold today and my sickness will get worse if I'm gonna go out

I also should start studying for my physics exam next Thursday

I really don't wanna fail that one too

I just wanna be alone and have some peace

Is that too much to ask for-

I'm gonna go now because I gotta wash my face, my eyes look kinda red rn Bdksjdjd