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Same day; around 5pm

Soo

I decided I'm gonna rant one more time here, even tho it doesn't help

And an hour after I published this, I'm gonna unpublish everything here

So, this book will be available till around 6pm today

Anyways

I have a question

Is it mean or greedy of me to want a bit more attention from my parents

Or that I want my family to be normal

I feel like it's incredibly mean of me

And greedy

For over a year now, my mum always says I'm so greedy and that I got so mean and stuff

But is that really just my fault

Because to be honest indknt think that's only my fault

I have 3 little siblings, a brother (11 y/o), and 2 sisters (3 and 5 y/o)

I have to share everything I own

I never even had a wardrobe just for my own things

I always had to share everything that was mine

My food

My money

My space

Everything

Next thing

I know it's not the easiest to have 4 kids

But if u don't have enough money and time to give every single one enough attention and the things they need

Why would u have 4 children then?

Why would you have 4 children if you have to borrow money from them so that you have barely enough money for food and to pay the bills

Why would you have 4 children if you don't have enough space for them to live at least a bit comfortable

Why would you have 4 children if you almost abandon one of them

Why would you have 4 children if they are barely allowed to do anything

Why would u even get children if you would just tell at them 50% of the time they spend home

Why would you bodyshame them

Why would u take away all their things if they do something bad once

Why would you force them to do things like wear smth they're uncomfortable In, or force them to eat, or won't let them eat, or just in general force them to do things they don't want to do because of their own reasons

I could go on and on but it would just get worse and I don't wanna cry again so I'll stop with this now

I'm gonna go now

Have a great day, or night, or idk lmao

Byeee :D