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fucking annoying

September 26th, 2021; around 12.30 am? Pm? IDK LUNCH TIME

Hello again </3

God this is so annoying

So

Basically what happened is that I ignored my mom the whole day yesterday since I couldn't handle her and part times she was acting super pissed and then later she was just "I don't understand why you're being like this now" and now, a few mins ago (she already asked me that yesterday and today too) she was like "are you okay" and "u can tell me if there's smth bothering you" and stuff like that and then after I was like yeah I'm fine she started victimizing herself. I hate it when she does that because it's always like "you know, your words really hurt me even if you don't notice, and that's why I was so mad and was yelling at you so much you know?" And she said some other stuff too but like I don't care anymore i mean why should I react to this when it's almost always like that, in the end it's my fault and i am the one who hurts the others and stuff like that like I'm even getting used to this bullshit honestly

But anyways we're having someone over in a few mins and I DON'T WANT TO LIKE LASST MICH IN RUHE MAN ITS FUCKING SUNDAY AND MY DAD'S WORKING TODAY SO THAT'S LIKE THE ONLY DAY OF THE WEEK WHERE I HAVE A CHANCE FOR PEACE BUT NO WE'RE HAVING SOMEKNE OVER FOR FUCKING LUNCH I HATE IT GOD

at least I'm calling with my friends later, the only good thing rn </3

Ok bye my head starts hurting again🚶‍♂️