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well I'm back ig BFJSHDJD

July 9th, 2021; around 9.40pm

Haha hi again

Tbh Idk when I will really upload this book again but I'm just gonna keep writing in this because I noticed that it isn't as useless as I thought it was

Well

Anyways

My mum's not home so me and my siblings are alone with my dad rn and he has been yelling at my sister's for half an hour because they won't sleep and they're both crying the whole time. Look I don't really like the fact that i have 3 little siblings and no privacy and all that stuff but that's really just messed up and I feel really bad rn because I can't even do anything against my dad. I always feel so bad and literally have the feeling of throwing up when my dad yells because it's so loud, it doesn't matter if he yells at one of my siblings, just me, or all of us, etc

And it's making me really uncomfortable, even a bit fucking scared because when my dad is angry or mad at us he gets really aggressive

Like, doesn't really hit us but he always yells so loud and aggressively and it makes my tummy twist every single time

Also

My sister's are 3 and 5 years old

A 40 year old man is yelling at 2 children who aren't even 6

I do not think that is normal family behaviour tbh

Anyways

I'm tired

I think I'm gonna take a nap later or smth idk

Bye now lol