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It's 3 fucking am

July 18th, 2021; it's 3.04am

No because I am literally this close 🤏 to just get a fucking kitchen knife and st4b my brother

My aggressions on this little fucking 11 years old demon are so high bitch I'm about to cry

And I never fucking cry when I'm angry

I just wanted to drink my fucking water

Like bitch look

I was in my bed scrolling through tiktok like usual

The mf over me sleeping for at least 1h

Okay then I get thirsty right

Gotta stay hydrated yk

So I get up and leave my room, ofc i gotta step on some plastic shit first which still hurts but that's not the point

So I go to the living room, drink sum water, and wanna go to my room again right

So while I wanna walk into my room

MOTHERFUCKED STARTS SCREAMING AT ME LIKE A FUCKING MANIAC

(I'm gonna write this in german now bcs yeah)

"WARUM HAST DU DIE FLASCHE NICHT MIT GENOMMEN BIST DU SCHWERHÖRIG BEHINDERTE NUTTE"

his words not mine

Also remember, everyone in my family is asleep, and the door was fucking open while he screamed

But

I'm not done 😀

Okay then I go to my bed and say "well I didn't hear you, go get your own water if you're thirsty"

Mf keeps on cursing me and shit while.i just wanna go to MY FUCKONG BED IS THAT TOO MUCH

BUT THAT GUY ISN'T DONE YET

MOTHERFUCKING FAILURE HAS HE RIGHT TO.SPIT ON ME

AND MY BED

HE FUCKING SPIT

I ALWAYS KNEW THAT GUY WAS A PSYCHO AND A PIG BUT COME ON THAT'S THE 4TH TIME IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS THAT HE SPIT.ON ME LIKE BOTCH ARE YOU A CUCKING COW OR WHAT

AND LIKE AFTER HE APIT I HAD ENOUGH YA KNOW LIKE WHO COULD KEEP THEIR CALM WHEN A FUCKING 11 YEARS OLD FORTNITE KID WHO CAN'T EVEN GRADUATE PRIMARY SCHOOL TREATS YOU LIKE THIS LIKE BOTCH IS U CAN DO THAT TAKE MY BROTHER AND FUCKING CURE HIM, KILL HIM IDC

OKAY SO.HE SPIT ON ME

Okay wait gimme a sec wieder hurensohn will wieder was

Okay no tears are literally falling down my face rn I can't deal with this anymore what the fuck is wrong with this fucking psycho

Okay so he spit on me, I grabbed his hand ins ich hab ihn gezwickt und er gibt mir my ohrfeige ins eine faust ins gesucht, 20 minutes later, that's now, bitch starts talking again

"Andjelina ich blute" mf starts fake sobbing hut stops after a few secs cuz it didnt work on me and then starts blaming everything on me and when I tell him reasons why it's not my fault he says halt einfach dein maul, or juckt mich nicht, or lass mixh doch in ruhe and stuff like that and he just spitted on me again

What is wrong with this guy I literally can't take it anymore someone help me I just wanna get out of here

Mf starts questioning if I'm crying now I mean I am crying but I said no and he has the right to ask why I am the one crying even tho he is the bleeding one

Oh great someone's up now

I wonder why

😀

Okay no bye I can't type anymore I'm about to fucking start sobbing but I.cant sob because then my brother will call me an attention seeker and call me hoe and cuss at me and spit at me and Idk I'll just go now bye