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fish

September 16th, 2021; around 1pm

Hi

So uh

I still didn't finish chapter one of rain

Crying

Anyways

I was at the dentist today

My teeth hurt kinda

And I gotta go to school later again

JUST FOR ART ISTG

2 HOURS MAN

crying

Oh also my sibling are also sick

My brother has pronchitis (?) Bzw lungenentzündung

And both of my sister's have a magen darm infektion

So yeah

Me and my parents are gesund tho so🕺

Oh also

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(Idk if it's needed but ig kinda tw: talking about eating and loosing weight and stuff like that)
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Today when I was making myself ramen my parents were like talking about the meds my brother has to take

And like they go after height and weight of the person yk

And like in the hospital today they weighted him and like it was 58kg said my mom (he's 11 btw)

And then my dad kept saying that he's way to overweight and he should loose fucking 15 kg because that's not normal

Look. I hate my brother. Over anything. But I cannot stand someone getting bodyshamed or getting told they have to loose weight. It's just. Ugh.

Anyways so my dad was like "he has to loose weight that's not normal"

And then when I sat down at the table with my food, i just wanted to fucking eat in peace, my dad asked me too.

"How mich do you weight?"

I fucking hate this question, especially when my family asks it

So I say "last time I weighted myself (Which was around 2 weeks ago or smth I think idk) it was 57"

Guess what happened

My dad was 'shocked' again

And started saying things like "yeah that's not normal either you gotta at least loose 5 kg, it would be even better if it's more"

I just wanted to fucking eat

I already skipped breakfast this morning because I felt like shit (bcs yesterday I only ate fast-food) and that cup of ramen was basically the first thing I ate today

And the results of my dad talking about that was that I was feeling worse and worse every bite I took

Yay

I was actually excited to eat because i haven't eaten ramen in a few weeks

Ig I gotta eat even less the next week's or smth idk

Yeah that's it bye ig

AH ISTG MY TEETH START TO HURT SO BAD I CAN'T