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fuck

July 7th, 2021; around 3pm

Y'all I'm at my grandma's rn

And I really wanna go swimming

So like

I put on my bikini, bcs like thats the only thing I got atm that I can wear for swimming

And now I'm here, in the bathroom, crying

I look so fat

And u can see the stretch marks

I can't go out like this

I mean like it's only my family but I can't go out like this

I already regretted eating that mini banana split after I took the first bite

But it's so bad

And I'm what to do now

Why are bikini bottoms always like fucking underwear

Why aren't they as long as men shorts

Why

I don't even feel like swimming anymore

And I feel like I'm gonna throw up

Okay I feel like this is so unnecessary so I'm gonna go now and try to figure out what I should do myself