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lol update

Same day not even 2 mins after publishing the chap before this

Okay so I was about to go outside to do the dishes but my mom stormed into my room again (still pissed i gotta add) and asked "yeah why didnt you just come to me and told me you wanted to sleep I would have told them to leave you alone" but we all now that this is a fucking lie since those are my siblings we are talking about and I could not deal with her rn so I straight up just said "it wouldmy have changed anything they would have still come back even if u told then to leave" AND THEN SHE GOT EVEN MADDER AND WAS LIKE "alr you can stay here now" LIKE SHE WAS YELLING AT ME LIKE BITCHWBAG IS YOUR PROBLEM I TELL HER BUT YOU WANTED ME TO DO THE DISHES AND SHE GOES NO THANKS I CAN DO THAT MYSELF YOU CAN STAY HERE THEN SHE CALLED ME DIRTY BECAUSE I DIDN'T SHOWER DIRECRLY AFTER SCHOOL WHICH IS ANOTHER THING SHE'S MAD ABOUT VECAHSE MY PARENTS ALWAYS TELL ME THE FIRST FUCKING THING I HAVE TO DO AFTER SCHOOL IS SHOWER. NOT EAT. NOT DOING GOMEWORK. NOT WATCHING TV OR PLAYING GAMES OR WHATEVER. I HAVE TO SHOWER. BECAUSE MY PARENTS ARE FOIBG THIS RELIGIOUS THING IDK IF I TOLD HERE ANT IT OR NOT BUT IDC AND LIKE I'M LOW-KEY IN THIS RELIGIOUS THING TOO SINCE I WAS A LITTLE CHILD AND I CANNOT BACK OUT FROM THAG BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT. THE POINT IS BECAUSE OF THIS THING THEY TELL ME I NEED TO SHOWER TO GET OFF SOME FUCKING NEGATIVITY I HAVE ON ME FROM SJOOL AND OUTSIDE AND I ALREADY TOLD THEM A FEW TIMES I DON'T FUVKIBG BELIEVE IN THIS SHTI I DON'T EVEN BELIEVE THERE IS A DAMN GOD BUT I STILL HAVE TO DO ALL THIS AND I ALSO TOLD THEM I AM GOING TO SHOWER IN THE EVENING LIKE ANY NORMAL PERSON AND BECAUSE I HATR SHOWERING IN THE DAY IT'S JUST WEIRD AND UNCOMFORTABLE FOR ME ODK WHY BUT I ONLY SHOWER WHEN ITS DARK IT DOESN'T MATTER IF IT'S IN THE MORNING OR NIGHT I JUST SHOWER WHEN ITS DARK AND I TELL THEM SO OFTEN AND I STILL GET YELLED AT FOR NOT SHOWERING AND DOING WHAT THEY WANT ME TO DO LIKE FUVK THIS SHIT I HATE IT

Anyways

I wanna throw up I ate too much pizza help

My head hurts

Crying

Pls I'm on 180° rn I Gotta calm down my hands are shaking

I'm actually also about to just fucking cry but let's ignore that part bcs I won't cry

Now I gotta think

What do I do

Because I surely will not just sit in my room crying now

The best thing would be to just get out of here as fast as possible but my dad gets home in like 1 hour so Idk what to do help 🚶‍♂️

I Gotta think of smth bye till then