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ahoy

may 22nd 2021; around 7.40pm

CASTAWAYS

WE ARE CASTAWAYS

AHOY THERE

AHOY

WE ARE CASTAWAYS

WE'RE STUCK WHERE WE ARE

WITH NO HOUSE

NO CAR

CASTAWAYS

AHOY

WE ARE CASTAWAYS

anygays I'm back with some depressing shit in here because that is my new coping mechanism :D

yeah well

my mum is in a bad mood today

like

really bad mood

like

really really bad mood

the whole time she's like, mad mad

you know

AND LIKE

SHE MAD AT ME FOR NO FUCKIN REASON

SHE MAD AT EVERYONE MAN

i mean i did everything she asked me to do (like always bcs she scary when she mad)

BUT SHE STILL MAD FOR SOME REASON

like stop throwing insults at me mum that's my brothers aufgabe- work- uh- wait lemme look it up omg-

JOB

IT'S MY BROTHERS JOB

GENAU

egal

uh

also my dad is at work till 9pm YAYNBFVGUHDNCVJ

and i don't have to go to school on moday and tuesday UEEEBDDCHJ

anyways my siblings are getting worse

and everyones just acting like I'm okay

like i literally am not able to properly eat, drink, and speak

bcs of those fckng bracets

I CANT TOUCH THE ROOF OF MY FCKNG MOUTH FFS

ALSO ITS STARTING TO HURT HORRIBLE

AND I TELL MY MUM ABT IT

REMINDER I TOLD HER AT LUNCH, SO IT WAS LIKE, 1PM

SHE SAID 'oh no, i'm gonna give you some painkillers when u finish lunch, but I'll give you not the usual, so don't take them alr'

AND I WAS LIKE, OKAY YEAH SURE

SHE STILL DIDN'T GIVE ME THE PAINKILLERS

AND I REMINDED HER 2 OR 3 TIMES ALREADY, WHICH I ALREADY FEEL BAD FOR, BECAUSE I ALWAYS FEEL BAD WHEN I REMIND SOMEONE BECAUSE THEN I'M SCARED THEY'RE GONNA BE ANNOYED AND YELL AT ME OR SMTH IDK VHKJCNVBFJJK

UH ANYWAYS

I STILL DIDN'T GET THE PAINKILLERS BUT I'M TOO SCARED TO ASK AGAIN BUT MY TEETH HURT AHDSVDCHZHVD

omg my cat just came into my room wait-

ueee he's sitting on my lap now omg

yesterday i tried some tiktok trends on him and then he ignored me all day but i think he forgave me 😔

update: i just ate dinner (it's 8pm rn)

i'm currently at the verge of tears

my mum is taking away all my devices for idk how long

my friends are probably gonna see this so

aki, selina, i'll see u guys on wednesday in school

I'm hoping that nothing happens

my mum starts yelling again bye-