My Sunshine

The Sacred Within You - Iruka

Haru had become more affectionate with him since Valentine's Day; her now more frequent and deliberate touches, making his head swim. She looked so incredible in her pink hakama pants and white long sleeved shirt. Every curve seemed to be accentuated by it.  Of course, under the warm spring sun, he would never tell her that.

However, he remembered his promise to her: no sex. And he intended to honor it.

A few times they ended up kissing passionately on the couch or on the bed, her on top of him. Her body was soft and her weight on his abdomen was comforting. Iruka never thought that he would meet his soulmate, let alone someone as young and beautiful as Haru. She was young and so vibrant. It was as if she was a completely different person than when she arrived at the beginning of the summer. He felt like an old man in her presence sometimes, but she always made him feel so loved.

Her kisses were soft and gentle when they were in public, and passionate behind the privacy of their own doors. He began to have beautiful dreams about a naked Haru beckoning to him in a hot spring. Her body would be flush against his as he came to her. He would embrace her softly and make love to her gently in the warm water, coaxing his name from her perfect pink lips as he made her cum passionately.

She still had her nights, though, where she was sure that she was too broken to be loved.  They were becoming less frequesnt as the months went by, but they still happened.

Unfortunately, tonight was one of those nights.

He leaned forward, brushing her cheek gently with soft fingers, but was surprised when she jumped back.

"Stop!"

Iruka froze. Haru shrunk back in terror.  It was still hard, hearing her scream and seeing the terror in her eyes, but it was something he was slowly learning to cope with. 

"What's happening?"

She was crying into her hands.

"Why would you even give this much attention to me? I'm broken, Iruka! Other men have destroyed my body, why are you being so gentle with it? I can't be your goddess, Iruka! How could I be? There's nothing left inside of me that's sacred!"

She was melting down.

He was trying hard to give her space, but she seemed as if she was slipping away from him and into her own darkness of the past tonight. He scrambled forward and scooped her up into his arms, holding her tightly. She screamed out in anguish as she thrashed against his body. After a while, she became limp and quiet, breathing heavily.

"Shhhh..."

He held her against his chest, stroking her hair gently.

"You're not on the Dragon Island anymore. You're home. You're where you belong. In Konoha. With me."

She was beginning to calm down.

"No one can take the sacred out of you. It's impossible. It lives deep within you where no one can touch it."

She looked up at him, her face was puffy and her eyes were sunken in.

"I belong here with you?"

"Of course, and I'm here to protect you, and I'll do so with my life if I have to."

"Don't the things that happened to me bother you?"

"They shake me to my very core. No one should have to deal with the emotional trauma that you have to. No one should have to live through such atrocities. But they don't change who you are as a person. You're beautiful, inside and out."

He held her close to his chest.

"Haru, would you mind if I pampered you tonight? Nothing sexual, I just want to make you feel calm and relaxed. You're a very important part of my life.

She nodded, making his heart melt. He picked her up, carrying her to the bathroom. She was still hiccupping softly as he placed her in the bathtub, turning the warm water on. Turning around, he fumbled through his medicine cabinet, finding the herbs that Lady Mizuka gave him a couple of weeks ago. He added them to the water, making it smell earthy and fragrant. She was already beginning to look better; more calm. Her body was absolutely beautiful, small, perky breasts with perfect nipples, and a slim, scarred body.  He could see that she was beginning to gain some muscle from training.  He sat down next to the tub, brushing water on her shoulders. She was still a little apprehensive, but receptive to his touch. He turned the water off. Haru was up to her shoulders in water, looking more relaxed and a little sleepy. Iruka took a bar of soap and began to gently run it over her body, beginning at her legs. Haru tensed up a little at first, but soon relaxed he gently spoke reassurances to her.

"I care about you so much, Haru. I would never hurt you. Ever."

She gave him a small smile.

"I believe you."

Her affirmation gave him comfort.

He worked, washing and rinsing her hair. He took in her beautiful body under the soapy water, blushing. She looked up at him.

"You okay?"

"You're... very beautiful. I'm sorry, I know I'm making you uncomfortable., saying that right now."

"You're not making me uncomfortable. It's okay. I know you won't hurt me. I trust you."

His voice was quiet, but surprised.

"You do?"

She gave him a grin.

"Of course I do. You've been so kind to me since I arrived. No one has ever shown me this sort of kindness. And I haven't had to worry about someone hurting me in the middle of the night, because I feel so safe in your bed."

He wanted to cry at her words. He helped her out of the bathtub, wrapping her in a big, fluffy towel before picking her up and carrying her to the turned down bed. He helped her put on her yukata and panties, giving her some coverage at least. Picking up a bottle of lotion, he began to rub it on her belly gently. The motion brought tears to her eyes.

"Am I hurting you?"

"No, not at all. I've... never had a man touch me so gently. It's like your hands are giving me life. It's a powerful feeling."

She was sending electricity through his body with her words. He leaned down and slowly put his lips on her belly gently, kissing her soft skin slowly and lovingly before resting his face on her warm, damp skin. She was intoxicating. He could feel her begin to cry.

"This is the most beautiful thing I've ever felt."

He put gentle hands on her belly as he kissed her skin. He could feel tears falling down his nose and landing on her skin. His tears made her skin taste salty. Soon, he placed his forehead against her belly, breaking down in tears.

"I want to take the pain and hurt away from you, but I don't know how."

"This is helping. It's making me feel human again, at least. I don't feel like an object to be used and destroyed."

"You're not. You're so much more than that."

He kissed her belly a few more times before looking up at her.

"Can I hold you, Iruka?"

The breath caught in his chest as he moved to lay down next to her, putting his head on his shoulder. Even though this wasn't the first time that she had held him, it still made his heart pound in his chest.  She smelled damp and clean, with an undertone of sweetness. He nestled into her, a little awkwardly at first, but he soon became comfortable.

"Are you comfortable?"

She didn't answer. She had already fallen asleep, still holding him close.