ECLIPSE *An Abusive Relationship* || JEON JUNGKOOK

DIFFERENT

CHAPTER: 4

"There were many things we would throw away if we were not afraid that others might pick them up."

-OSCAR WILDE, The Picture of Dorian Grey

Y/N's POV

As I was walking down the stairs, I was a bit dizzy, standing at the stairs I saw the carpet, it had blood stains. Stepping down, I went to the kitchen; it was messy; the broken pieces of glass, whiskey, blood drops (probably Jungkook's). I carefully walked into the kitchen and took out the frozen chicken. Since the chicken would take some time to defreeze, I decided to clean up everything.

I first cleaned the kitchen, then the hallway, and then the door. The carpet has to be changed because the blood stains were not coming out. I rubbed it many times, but it didn't work.So, I decided to have it changed. Both Jungkook and I have decent jobs, so money is never a problem for us. Therefore, changing the carpet was not that big of a deal.

It took me around 45 minutes to clean everything; after some time, the breakfast was prepared. I was really hungry since I didn't eat anything last night. I thought of waking up Jungkook, but I was scared. "What if he gets angry that I woke him up?" I said to myself, after gathering up all my courage and went upstairs to our room. As I opened the bedroom door, I saw he was not on the bed. I figured he was washing up. It was weekend, so I didn't have to work, but Jungkook has to work even on weekends because he has to deal with many cases. I got inside the room and walked to the washroom. I clenched my fingers before knocking on the washroom door. As I knocked, the shower stopped.

"Jungkook " I called, I swallowed a big lump down my throat. I got no reply clearing my throat. I continued, "the breakfast is ready."

He replied "yeah."

"Okay," I stated.

My heart was racing after I heard his voice but for all the wrong reasons. Oh! what I wouldn't do to get my life how it was before 6 months ago? Anything! I'd do anything!

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I was doing the dishes, lost in my thoughts, "Does he even love you y/n? You are not even pretty anymore; why has he changed? Is he in love with someone else? He is good-looking and an amazing lover; any woman would die to be with him. Am I really that trashy? Is it my work that got us into this? Shall I quit my job? Does he think I am not giving him enough love and ignoring him? What if there is really someone else in his life? What if really Jungkook has fallen for someone else? What if he doesn't love me anymore? "

I suddenly felt pain on my back. It was Jungkook; he hugged me from the back and crossed his fingers on my stomach. "Ahh.!!" I let out a little scream, realizing to which Jungkook loosen his grip and kept his face on my shoulder "y/n" he said "yeah" I hesitantly replied, he didn't say anything. Worried, I turned my head a little. I looked at his face; his eyes were filled with tears, "I..I.will never do that to you again.." he said sobbing," he continued, "I promise to you on my life...i would never ever do it again."

My heart started thumping faster than it normally does, hearing to what he said. I got out his grip, turned towards him and hugged him as tears built in my eyes. It had been ages since he held me this close to him and he let me hold him.

 "Don't cry," I said, hugging him tight as last night's memories flashed in my head.

After staying like that, close to each other but worlds apart. I broke the hug.

"Let's eat now, shall we?" I requested wiping the tears from his face; he did not look at me and just nodded. I held his hand and walked to the dining table.

After I was done eating, I went to clean the dishes again, None of us spoke while eating, suddenly I felt a pair of hands around my waist "it was delicious" Jungkook praised me as my heart flipped a thousand little times. It had been such a long time since we had been this close. He was making me cry again by all the affection he was showing me.

Maybe he was doing it out of guilt but he's always been cold before whenever he hurt me. Maybe this is it. Maybe he is turning back to the old Jung kook I knew.

 "What do you want to have for dinner?" I asked, getting out of my thoughts. "Anything you want to cook," he replied. I turned to him and kissed him softly, on his cheeks. 

"I am sorry," he said again. He had apologized when the first few time when it all started but after a while it became a habit of him just hurting me and never apologizing and I became used to it. 

Those apologies were sincere, when he made those, and I knew these were sincere too.

"Jungkook, let's just forget it now, please?" I argued. His eyes were wet again. I told him to calm down and reminded him that he was getting late.

I walked him to his car, he opened his car door, and the he did something I never thought would ever happen again, he turned back and kissed me, Jungkook kissed me and I kissed him back. 

I got inside the house, closed the door, and started crying out loud. Everything that was inside me came out in an instant. Why?? Why?? Did he do this to me? Why does he have to be this way?? Can I please get back the old Jungkook? I prayed and cried for a long long time.

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After a while, I stopped. "He still loves you , and he apologized to you for the first time after a long time," I said to myself. I was both happy and sad. But for now, I chose to be happy because he was different today. "I LOVE YOU TOO JUNGKOOK AND I ALWAYS WILL, I HOPE YOU LOVE ME TOO" I said to myself.

TO BE CONTINUED******

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