ECLIPSE *An Abusive Relationship* || JEON JUNGKOOK

THE EXPECTED

Mrs. Kim: kookie??

Jk:.......

Mrs. Kim: jungkook?? You have to answer me?

Jk: um

Mrs. Kim: I examined y/n's body she has marks all around her body and in my experience I now know how she has those marks. Her anal cavity is also swollen. I want to know, what is the truth Jungkook? My child I have seen you grow, you are like my son what on earth made you do that?. Okay tell me was it just one time or you always hurt her? Kookie you have to tell me something this silence is not going to help anyone. Did you or did you not do that?

Jk: yes.!

Mrs. Kim: what?

Jk: I did that to her

I said still looking down.

Mrs. Kim: why jungkook why? Don't you love her?

Jk: you should report me.

Mrs. Kim: what?

Jk: report me to the police.

Mrs. Kim: Jungkook (she said in a heavy voice. I understood she was crying)

Jk: eommoni I did hurt her. All those marks are given by me, and all the mental issues she is having. I gave it to her. Just report me to the police.

Mrs. Kim: I..i can't son but why? I am not able to process anything. Why why why? You were a sweet little boy and then you became a responsible adult and you were a caring husband then how come all this?

Jk: okay then I will report myself then.

I stood up and started walking out when Mrs. Kim walked towards me and held my hand and said "jungkook I cannot decide this, y/n will. So please wait till she gets back to her consciousness" and left her office, I could see she was disappointed. No not disappointed she was more like disgusted with me. will she tell everyone now? will everyone hate me? ohh I am a fool if I am pitying myself. I am the one who did this to her and I am fine with anything I get. I just hope she gets better.

I hate myself every time I hurt her but I still hurt her that is why I am ready to face anything that is there for me, anything. Will taehyung and jimin hate me too? I chuckled of course they will, why would they not hate me after knowing what I did to y/n. I hate myself too but I think all this has no point because the damage is already done and I have ruined every thing already so there is actually no point thinking of who will or will not hate me.

I went to y/n's room and sat on the couch and looked at her. Her face was pale and her body was lean a drop of tear fell from my eyes as her screams ran in my head. Every fuckin day I treated her like a whore. I had sex with her, humiliated her, threw money on her face every time we laid. Actually every time I raped her. Yes I raped her every fucking day, I know this because she resisted me every time I forced myself inside her. Every night, every time.

I know I am a sick pathetic human, I know what kind of a person I am. I actually care about people, I have self respect, dignity, also i respect others and every fucking thing God expects a human to be but the irony here is I am the kindest person in everyone's eyes but for my own wife I am a nobody.

Yes I help people in need, yes I empathize with others, it's my honesty and my hard work of what I am today but all this is waste because in all this I have lost the most precious thing I had. I lost my love. I know no matter how many times I apologize to her she will never forgive me for what I did to her. She begged me somedays to leave her, she begged me to trust her yet I refused to listen to her and did what I had to do.

Even after everything she made breakfast for me, reminded me everyday to have my lunch and served the dinner even after knowing that she will be tortured after all that yet, yet she did everything. I know for the fact that it was not love, it was the fear she had. I know she feared me that is why she did everything I asked her to do. Look what I made her, a nobody. Just like myself.