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Learning Each others Trauma

Tw: mention of rape, domestic abuse

Kaitos pov

"you can't be serious" kokichi turned to me with an angry expression.

"oh but I am" I grinned "now let's started"

"there's no way I'm doing that" kokichi sat up and folded his arms "why should I pour my heart out to you when I know nothing about you"

"Hmm that's a good point!" I handed him the notebook and lay back "well my names kaito mamota and I've been through quite the rough patch growing up"

Kokichi looked confused as hell but he didn't interrupt me.

"when I was four years old my father, who supported my dreams of becoming an astronaut died in a car crash"

"I see" kokichi muttered, writing daddy issues in the notebook. What an asshole!

"after my father died my mother turned to the drink. She'd get drunk and.. beat the shit out of me" I sighed. I hated talking about it. It made me feel weak.

Kokichi stopped doddling in the notebook and finally took me seriously "are you still living with her?"

"nah. My grandparents took me away from that life and I can't thank them enough for it" I smiled blissfully at the shocked looking boy "ok now you know my tragic story. Tell me yours"

Kokichi sighed and handed me the notebook "my mom was the best growing up and my dad was a total asshole"

"ok" I wrote down 'emotional attachment to mother' and 'hatred or father' "keep going"

He nodded shakingly "when my parents had split up I had to go to my mom's house and my dad's house once a week"

I nodded and wrote down 'deforced parents'

"I loved going to my mom's place. Her new boyfriend was amazing to me but I hated going to my dad's place" he gulped "my dad was still bitter about the break up. So he took his sexsual frustrations out on me"

"did he hit you?" I asked.

"worse" he whimpered "he.. he raped me!" he covered his mouth as soon as he said it while tears ran down his cheeks.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. This was so much worse than I expected.

"is he still hurting you?" I asked through clenched teeth. I felt unbelievably angry. How could anyone do that to their own son!

"no" he replied "I managed to tell my mom's boyfriend about it and after having a 'word' with him he called the police on him. He now rotting in jail where he belongs. The last time he touched me was five years ago"

He was only twelve years old at that time!

"kaito how do you do it?" I looked over at Kokichis teary eyes in surprise "you've also been through trauma and yep you can smile like nothings wrong! Your so much stronger than me. How did you stop being afraid?"

"I didn't" I said simply.

"huh?"

"I'm still afraid. If someone was to raise their fist and act violent to me. Even if it was just shuichi I'd curl up into a ball and cry. Just like I did when I was seven years old"

"then how come I've never seen you cry?" he asked.

"cause someone starting a fight with a big guy like me is unlikely. Its alot harder to avoid touch so don't feel ashamed for crying" I said reassuringly.

He suddenly burst into tears and clung to my chest "it hurts kai-chan. Please make it go away!"

"I know it hurts kid" I said not touching him to avoid causing the boy more trauma "but you'll get through it. Your strong. Stronger than you know"

We spent the rest of the night staring up at the stars.