My Professor's Secret

Kabanata 30

I can't believe this. Why am I being so dumb? Why didn't I realized it right from the start? Now, I'm clearly enlightened.

Nakakatawang isipin na hindi ko manlang napansin na ang pangalan niya at ng kompanya ay iisa. Now it all explains why he's so much wealthy. But it never even once came into my mind that there's a potential for him to be a CEO. He's too young to become one!

Right now, I can't find a rightful way to describe what I'm feeling. I just discovered that my boyfriend owns the highest position in a notable company. And to think that my father is working under his company?

I feel like... he's so high up there. At ang isang katulad kong amateur, hindi nababagay sa kanya. Para bang sobrang layo niya sakin na hindi ko siya kayang abutin. I don't know but there's this insecurity in my heart that won't easily fade away.

Pagkatapos ng nalaman ko ngayon, I don't think if I can still be able to talk to him normally like before. I suddenly felt a little intimidation towards him. I man like him deserves to be honored. I just realized how I've been so informal towards him until now.

Agad kong ibinalik sa closet ang hoodie at tinago ang business card ni L. Sinadya ko ring i-off ang aking phone para wala akong matanggap na tawag galing sa kanya. I plan to cancel going out today. I am occupied with many thoughts inside my mind and I need time to think.

Gosh, until now I think I'm still surprised that I can't move on. Hindi pa ito alam ng parents ko. Paano kaya kapag oras na malaman nila? Will they still be going to support my relationship with him? And especially about my dad, ano kaya ang magiging reaksyon niya oras na malaman niya ito? I guess he'll freak out.

Well, initially, I don't have plans on telling him about this. I'm not prepared and... I'm not in the position to tell them about L's secret.

It was eight in the evening when my father got home. Sabay kaming tatlong kumain ng dinner. Habang kumakain ay nag-uusap sina mom and dad habang ako naman ay tahimik lang habang hindi masyadong ginagalaw ang aking pagkain. I don't have any appetite right now. Pakiramdam ko rin ay parang wala ako sa sarili ngayon. Ang gulo ng utak ko na para bang hindi ako mapakali.

"Becky!"

Gulat akong napatingin kay mommy nang malakas niyang tinawag ang pangalan ko.

"Mom?" may pagtataka kong sabi.

"What's wrong with you, anak? We've been calling you many times but you won't budge. You're spacing out."

"Oh." Napaayos ako ng upo. "I'm sorry."

"Are you alright?" she asked

Ngumiti ako. "Yes, of course, I'm alright. May iniisip lang."

Tumango-tango sila. "So, what we're saying here is malapit na ang Christmas. It's two days from now. Patrick and his parents will be celebrating their Christmas here in our house and I invited some of our relatives and your dad's business associates to come over too. Right now, we're busy talking about the preparations, the dinner theme and... oh! Why don't you invite your friends to come over too!?"

Hayy... si mommy talaga, gagawin pa yatang piyesta ang Christmas.

"Nah, they'll probably have their own dinner too with their families." mahina kong sagot at matamlay na napabuntong hininga. "Mom, do you really have to do this? The house will be too crowded."

"Come on anak, it's Christmas! Kaysa naman mag-celebrate tayo na tayo-tayo lang, that's no fun! Christmas is about sharing and accepting people. Let it be our way to socialize with them. Right, Leonardo?"

Wala ng nagawa si dad kundi ang tumango sa kanya. Tss.

"And what about Liam? Hindi pa ba siya nakakauwi ng bansa?" mommy suddenly inquired.