Addiction (Jim x Tilly - The Basketball Diaries fic)

Chapter 9. I encountered an angel 👼🏻

Jim
We stumbled home arm in arm somewhere
around 9pm. Tilly and I had been out day drinking,
and let's just say that we were both lost in our own worlds. God, I really hope her Mom isn't home... we'd never be allowed to see each other again! I can't live with the fact of not being able to see her entrancing face features, touching her soft, brown hair, running my fingers through them
as she slept, and her perfect body that I ached with every part of me to feel.
"Jimmyyyy" her ocean blue eyes staring up at me like a lost puppy. I turned my head to her, smiling gently.  I laughed slightly at her new nickname for me; her gaze still on me. "Yes Tilly" I steadied her as her feet began tripping over each other, causing the light in her face to glow as she gleefully smiled. My heart skipped a beat as her question took longer than expected. Eventually Tilly found her words, a short burst of expression came out. "What would you say if I..." my face started to heat up at the thought of her next words, heart beating as fast as a million drums. I knew what would come out of my mouth, I just had to wait for her to finish her sentence.

Tilly
"What would you say if I..." I slurred, gazing up at Jim. My Jim. His facial features as prominent as a red sock among white socks, his perfect dirty blonde hair flopping over his eyes, and his arm wrapped around mine was enough to make my
faint from happiness and glee. My heart felt like it could burst at any second, splattering Jim in the love and affection I felt - and always have done - for him. I noticed his beautiful smile peak a little at the sides of his mouth, although his face was heating up as my words came out faster than I expected. 'Oh fuck it Tilly, if he says no then you can just say that you were smack out drunk'. My words found the way out of my mouth, like a waterfall of love.
"If I... If I said I uh fell for you". I watched Jim stop, his face stock still. He looked shock and I immediately regretted the revelation I had just revealed. "Of course, only hypothetically!" I swiftly added. Yet again, I regretted saying that too. What if he also liked me back and mentioning that makes him rethink it! Oh my god. What the fuck have i done?! "Fuck, sorry no i'm an idiot. Sorry Jim, I'll go", I struggled from his grasp and started making my way down the path with difficulty as standing was now becoming a more challenging task as the alcohol set it more. I looked back to see his face pale of confusion, yet happiness. My brain could not differentiate between whether he was mad or happy. My eyes filled with tears, but I held them in in fear of Jim asking me what's wrong. Every second of standing there they threatened to fall and unleash the hurt I felt.

Jim
I couldn't believe it. The girl I have loved blissfully for years has told me she loved me. I knew the second she said that it was "hypothetical" she did not mean it. I had known her for long enough to
tell the difference between her lies and her truth.
"Tilly! Stop. I've known you for long enough to know your lies and your truth". She whipped her head around in uncertainty. Shaking slightly, I made my way up to her. I could tell her looked uncomfortable at my next move. This was never my intention to worry her and I felt an intense emotion to protect her in that moment. Slowly, my hand found its way up to her chin. I carefully placed two fingers beneath it and rose her head to look at me. My stomach was tying itself in tight knots, yet I was in love. I embraced her in a tight hug, wrapping my arms around her waist and taking in the heavenly smell of her. She slowly repeated my movement and we stood in the open street, drunk and in love. I pulled away quickly, placing my muscular hands on her velvety feeling skin, my thumbs just in front of her ears, and my fingers touching her silky, divine chestnut brown hair. She looked up at me, her sapphire blue eyes once again gazing up at me. Tilly's mouth tugged into a smile as I lightly brushed my thumbs along her glossy skin. We stayed like this for a second before she stood up on her tip-toes and moved in closer to me; our bodies so close that I could feel the affectionate tension between us. I could see her eyelashes one by one as she tilted her head to the side, grabbing my head sweetly and pulling it forward. Our lips met and grazed across each other - her lips were as soft as feathers and her breath as sweet as candy. I was in heaven, almost as if I had just encountered an angel who professed their love to me. Only, I had just encountered an angel - she was standing right in front of me. I fondly massaged her hair as she placed her hands around my neck, finding the back of my hair and twiddling with it. The world was all for us, and there was no doubt in the fact that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Tilly - my own personal guardian angel who cared for me and loved me.

Tilly
I was in paradise, and nothing could stop that.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter! Sorry it isn't as good as the others, I have no idea where this is going - I have a brief idea, but not a plot or anything so bear with me!
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